Numb Pt.2 | Xxxtentacion [Completed]

Rich and Blind :(

Ski and I sat down and watched him while he started.

"They say wanna read my mind, do you really wanna read my mind? I promise that all you will find, is a lost soul rich and blind." He sang.

I paused the recording and said, "Yo that fucking smacked."

I hit record again and he continued.

When he sang, "Sometimes when I'm high, I feel high in reverse." That hit me too.

Then like a few minutes later he almost finished the lyrics.

Ohhh myyyy, When he sang, "This is dedicated to you if you felt the lowest of the low, I know how it feels. You don't wanna struggle anymore." I felt that.

I paused the recording.

"Jarad, that shit sounds so good right now." I said.

"Facts bro, you gonna needa get a beat for it and re-record it tomorrow or something." Ski added.

"Thanks y'all. The talk y'all had out there kinda inspired me, no bullshit." He said as he took off the headphones and walked out the studio.

Ski and I followed him to the living room.

"I miss her too." He sighed. "I just can't seem to talk about it, 'cause my bond with her was NOTHING like the type you two had with her."

"We don't care about how strong the bond was, you can talk about her too whenever we do. Don't disclude yourself from it. You deserve to talk about your emotions too." I said, trying to comfort him so he knew that it was honestly okay.

"I'll take that into consideration, imma go to sleep tho, goodnight y'all." He said as he walked to his room.

"Same, I'm tired too. Goodnight." I said back.

"Goodnight Stokeley." I said as we did our handshake.

I went up to my room.

Fuck, I really miss Jacqui. Like I don't even feel alive anymore. I'm literally dead inside.

I went in my room, decided to turn on my purple lights and played 'Dead Inside'.

"Deaddd Inside, spend a lot of time stuck in this head of mine-.." I sang, I couldn't continue.

It hurt so bad. I DIDNT WANNA FUCKING LOSE HERRRR!! 😩

"Baby, talk to me please. Lemme hear your voice again." I said as I looked up at my ceiling.

I grabbed my phone and went into my camera roll. I watched a video of Jacqui and I.

- In the Video -

*Jacqui And Jahseh backstage at a concert*
Jah: Awhh look at my beautiful babyyy
*he said from behind the phone*
Jacqui: *laughs* awhh baby I love you.
*then Jah flips the camera and they kiss*

- Video Ends -

"I love you too." I say as I BURST into tears.

"I don't wanna do this anymore without you. I FUCKING CAN'T!!" I scream.

I put my phone on my night stand and continue to historically cry. I keep gasping for air. I felt like I was dying.

"Baby, PLEASE say something, ANYTHINGG." I beg while I start looking out my window up at the stars.

*The Next Morning*

I woke up, feeling all stuffy. I also felt as if I couldn't move. I'm genuinely not ready to continue. It's hard not hearing her voice anymore.

"I lost you baby and right now you're all I need." I cried "I wanna give you a good morning kiss right now baby, hold you, and tell you that I fucking love you."

It's sad that I can't do the things I want to do with her anymore.

"JAHSEH!" Ski yelled from downstairs.

I didn't yell back, I just got up and walked downstairs.

"Wassup?" I asked.

"Jarad just finished that one song from last night." Ski answered.

"Aye, for real?" I asked again.

"Yup, 'Rich and Blind' is gonna be the name of it." Jarad said as he walked in the living room.

"That's sweet, can I hear it?" I said as I walked towards the stu.

"Yeah." he said as he walked towards the stu too.

All 3 of us were chillin in the studio, then he hit play.

Wow, this sounds really fucking good. I can relate to most of the shit he's talking about.

"You got a hit." Ski let out.

"For real thooo." I added.

"When you gonna drop it?" Ski asked.

"Once I add more songs, I might make another album and just drop it when it's complete. To be honest, I don't even know yet." Jarad answered.