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Faded

I barely hold myself together. 

Thinking of you is a drug, I know I shouldn't but I can't help myself.

"Just give me a reason to forget," my heart cries out, though my mind knows I have hundreds of reasons to do so. 

Yet I have a hundred in which i can't. I'm broken with you, i'm broken without you. 

Should I be happy that it happened or sad that it had to end. 

I know you would have torn me to shreds even more if i had stayed, but now i'm frozen and feel as if I can't move. 

All of those words used to mean something at one time. 

But now it has all faded away because your actions spoke louder than your words.

 Are those drugs blowing your mind now?! I wish you wouldn't, but i know you are. 

I wish you missed me the way i miss you. But I know your to high too.

I sometimes I wish I could be too, just so I could finally drift away and forget it all. 

Can I have me back? Because I can't seem to find myself anymore.