~¤In the Depths of Darkness¤~

~°You°~

You were the reason for her pain.
You were the reason for her smile.
You were the reason for her happiness.
You were the reason for her anger.
You were the reason for her every feeling and emotion.

Now that you said those few words saying that we should pretend that you don't exist. You expect her to do it. To admit it. Saying those words were easy but doing it was not.

Being absent in her life made it a billion times worse for her when she needed you even if she was still hurt when you were here.
Being gone just made it hurt even more.

It became intolerable to bear.

But she tried by thinking about you
Your advice.
What you day. Mattered to her.

What would have been your suggestion to her.

That's what she thought of.

You would have said "i will be here no matter what happens. Even not physically mentally i am present in your heart so be courageous and live your life.You are my brave little one."

That would have been your words but did you really mean it for you to just leave abruptly?

Perhaps you lied or you said the truth but now you are not here so whats the use of blaming you.

All i can do is cry over you.

Cry for losing you when you are still alive.

Cry for losing a friend. Someone dear to me.

Cry for that one who made me smile during all my sorrows.

I will always be grateful to you for what you did for me whether it was intentionally or not.

For all your love and affection.

My heart calls out for you to reach out to hear your voice.

I will always pray for you even if you are not here. For you to be safe and sound in any corner of life. For you to live a better life than you had with me.

Therefore i shall always accept you for how you were,how you are and how you will be in the future. Whether you are at fault because i know somehow i missed some points that you tried to show me.

I thank you for being with me whether it was one day,one year, one second, one minute or even an eternity. Because it made me believe in myself for loving such a wonderful creature god sent on earth.

YOU.