detraction | Sohn Youngjae ✅

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I found myself handing them tissues as we studied for an exam. "You all look awful." Juyeon had covered his face more and Changmin had started rubbing his eyes with a tissue. Younghoon blew his nose and it didn't sound too good. It had also been the first time in awhile since we all got together. "Anyone understand number 6?" Younghoon moved over to Haknyeon and started explaining. Everyone at first had believed Younghoon was just a big buffoon until he solved a problem that they couldn't.

"Ugh, I can't do this. I'm going to go sleep." Juyeon had gotten up along with Changmin. "I'm going too. Text me Hak." The rest of us watched them go and I sighed. "They could've toughed it out." "Yeah, no. They looked dead." "Should we continue?" Kevin had gotten up and went after Changmin I assume. Sangyeon looked at us in confusion. "I guess tutoring session is done." He packed up his things then said goodbye. We had only recently met Sangyeon through Younghoon. Sangyeon was an impressive guy. He was ambassador, in a few clubs and often was the cause of change at school. I wondered how they even became friends. When I decided to ask, he was already boarding the elevator.

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I found myself in Haknyeon's room watching him create drawn lookalikes of germs and cells. "What's this?" "A neuron." "And this?" "Glucose." I nodded and was in awe on how far science had come. "So, why did you call for me if you were just going to draw the entire time?" "I just wanted company." "Was I the only one available?" "No..." I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss the old Haknyeon. He was more bright and peppy. This new Haknyeon was...timid. Like baby almost. I noticed he had put his pencil down and was now facing me.

"Am I different to you?" I wanted to say yes, but what if he reacted negatively? I didn't want to lie either as we kept our friendship free of secrets and lies. "Yes..." "I thought so. You're not the only one who thinks so. My friends, professors and even my sister...They all think and say the same thing." I patted his shoulder then sighed. "Do you possibly have a reason as to why?" "Not that I can think of." "Maybe it's just repressed?" It made sense. Someone can't have their personality drastically change unless something traumatic happened to them or the brain. At least, that's what I learned in psychology. "Would everyone like me again if I was the old me?" "Haknyeon, if they don't like you as you are now, then they were never really your friends."

He hugged me tight and it kind of hurt to hear that he's going through an identity crisis and having friendship troubles because of it. "I'll always be here for you, remember that." "I know...thank you." I pulled away and was a bit spooked by the look in his eyes. I couldn't tell what it was, but it reminded me of his past self. "Oh! This is for you." He handed me a piece of paper and I was astounded. It was me holding a bouquet of flowers. "You drew this?" "Yeah...Remember when I asked you to pose...?" "Ah...Thank you, Hak." It didn't matter whether he was his new or old self. I loved him all the same. I found myself kissing his forehead then wondered why I did it. "Thank you..."

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I felt dizzy as I lied back on Juyeon's bed. "Everything is spinning." "Really? It's crisscrossing for me." I started giggling and he soon followed suit. I found it hard to breath as I was now laughing at the ceiling. I sat up then looked over at Juyeon. "Guess what?" "Hm?" "Chicken butt." We erupted into laughter again then found myself on top of him. "Get off...you're heavy and smell like shit." "So do you." He groaned and slapped my ass a few times before I finally moved. "Do it again." "Huh?" "I want my ass slapped again. It's so arousing." "You like that huh?" "Fuck yeah I do." That one simple action had gotten me hard. Or was there more to it than that?

I couldn't count how many times he had done it, but I knew each time I had moaned in pleasure. "God you're giving me such a boner you little shit." I managed to pry myself free then looked at him. "Sorry." "Don't be. I'm sure you're just as hard too." "I can't...Joonie will be mad." "It'll be fine. Come on." "Noooo~" I became bashful then felt Juyeon pull me onto his lap, but I was now straddling him. "It'll be our drunken secret~" "Okay~"

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I found myself sitting with Changmin and Kevin in the library. "So, it seems Juyeon has been nicer to you lately." "He's always been nice." I often wondered what had happened that night we had decided to drink our problems away. Neither of us remembered and assumed we had both just fell asleep naked. The thought of us possibly having sex never really crossed our minds as we knew how the other was. "Hey! Earth to nerd!" "Piss off." Changmin chuckled then slid a piece of paper over to me. "Wanna go? I heard Juyeon and Younghoon were thinking of going." "Why not. It's been a while since I partied."

Changmin gave me a high five then waved at someone behind me. "Joon!" I ran over and hugged him tight and he happily returned the gesture. "So this is where you were. Why didn't you answer my texts?" Kevin waved my phone in the air then pointed at Changmin. "They were studying and didn't want distractions." "Ah." He sat down in my seat then had me sit on his lap. "So, what are we studying?"