Jellybean Jones

Chapter 54: I'm going to be okay...

Jellybean POV
The weekend came sooner than I ever could've imagined. The last two weekdays seemed to only last a minute. I was relieved about that. I didn't have anything this weekend. I mean, Saturday was supposed to be- a regular day. It was supposed to be a regular day.

Jughead could obviously tell I was conflicted about something. He could tell from the moment I had flopped down on the couch a few days ago. I got up Saturday, the normal day, morning still feeling conflicted. It was earlier than I would usually get up, but I didn't care. I got dressed and walked into Jughead's room, knowing full well that he would still be asleep.

I laid down at the foot of his bed, something I used to do when we were little and I was bored, and waited. I was starting to drift back to sleep when my brother pulled me on top of him. "Whatcha doing?" He asked casually. I rolled off of him. "I'm conflicted." I announced, siting up right. "Yeah no shit." He said laughing.

I glared at him and stuck out my tongue. "Proceed." He added, also sitting up. "So on Thursday, Adi and I were at Pops and she asked me if I want to spend spring break with her at her cabin." My sentences started to come out rather fast. "And I don't know what to do. I can't say no. But you know me. You know what I'm like away from you and, well, I know I made it five years without you, but now that I'm back I don't like leaving and I just, I don't know what to do." I confessed, suddenly out of breath.

"You should go." He said unexpectedly. "That's not what you were supposed to say." I said frustratedly. "I wasn't supposed to say the truth?" He asked. I looked down. There was a small silence between us. "I miss you too you know." Jughead said quietly. "I-I know I'm sorry I just never think- I just never-" I began, embarrassed. He only shushed me.

Jughead POV
I was able to control my longing for Jellybean when we weren't together. Of course I missed her, I could just contain it. She, on the other hand, missed me, but couldn't keep it to herself. We were the same, but with a fair share of differences. "I don't know what to do." She whispered, suddenly breathing quickly. "Is this overwhelming you?" I questioned gently. She nodded. I knew she got overwhelmed very easily, she always had.

I wiped a tear of her cheek. I knew what she should do, she should go. She should get used to not being with me and get used to staying with a friend. "You do know what to do, Jelly." I told her softly. "I know." She agreed quietly. "I'll go." She whispered. "You'll go where?" Dad asked, suddenly appearing in my room. "I-I don't want to think about." She said quickly. She disappeared to her room.

"She's spending spring break at Adelaide's cabin. If that's alright with you?" I explained. "Of course it is. She needs to spend some time away from us." He agreed. A troubling thought I had been trying to avoid slipped into my mind. "After this year," I began slowly. "I only have one year left of high school and then, well, then university. Which I don't think is going to be anywhere near here. What's going to happen to us?" I asked worriedly.

A look of pure concern flashed across Dad's face. It only lasted a second, but it was there. No doubt about it. It only worried me farther. If Dad was worried about it, I should be absolutely terrified. "Dad?" I asked quietly when he didn't respond. "I don't know." He said dryly. "I have absolutely no idea."

I cringed at that. He always had a plan. He was supposed to fix this. But for once, he couldn't. I started to legitimately panic, even though it was still over a year away. "We'll deal with it when the time comes." Dad said simply, trying to comfort me. But I wasn't comforter. Not in the slightest.

Jellybean POV
It was already March fourteenth and to my dismay, spring break started on Saturday. I had told Adi I was going and she was beyond thrilled. But she knew I wasn't so sure about it. She could tell something was off and I just wanted to tell her, but I didn't. I just couldn't. I was so freaked out about being away for two weeks that I could barely focus on anything else. I really need to get my priorities in order.