Cold Coffee

Late Nights, Early Mornings

Well I stand in front of the mirror and look at myself. 
And I don't make a sound but my eyes scream out help
And I start to struggle to hold myself back, 
From thrusting my head straight through the fucking glass

       The music ran throughout my lonely one bedroom apartment and the tired business men and women below me can even probably hear it over the loud angry foreigners who cant seem to hail a taxi. My heart swelled remembering the day I first moved to New York. I was only 17. I had finally gotten emancipated. My parents no longer cared for my whereabouts. They hadn't even bothered buying a lawyer. They didn't want me just as much as I didn't want them. Moving to New York was a struggle. I didn't have any money and my parents decided to burn all of my belongings other than a few outfits. I did have a part time job and a manager who was more than understanding. She had aloud me to work full time and stay in the apartment above the little coffeeshop til I got up on my feet. After a year and a half, I was finally able to afford a trip up to New York and a shitty little apartment. From there I began a internship at Titan publishing and I got another part time job at a similar coffeeshop which paid more than minimum wage thankfully. I then moved to a better apartment which is the one im in now. I was able to get a rooftop apartment, I honestly would have shamed myself if I got the cheaper apartment just 2 floors below me. Since moving to New York i found sleep hard to come by. I can never seem to get sleep. I always go to sleep around 2 and I have to wake up at 6. Probably not the smartest idea to go to sleep at such an absurd time when I have to get up before dawn. 

"Eren!!" I heard a familiar voice yell while banging on my door.
"Armin! Shut the hell up! Its too early to be yelling. Do you want to be yelled at by Erwin?" I spoke harshly knowing what happened last time the naive little blonde pulled this shit. Erwin my landlord came up and began yelling saying he'd kick me out of this apartment.
"I wouldn't mind it." I could hear the smirk on his face from behind the door. I walked over and opened it smacking his head.
"God Armin! He's like 40!" I said laughing in disgusting.
"I was kidding! Calm down and hes only 37." He muttered the last part.
"Armin." I warned. 
"We dont have time to talk about this get dressed were going to be late for work." He walked to the kitchen and made a bowl of cereal for himself and oatmeal for me as i threw on my coffeeshop uniform which was just black skinny jeans and a red top with my name embroidered on it. I walked to the bathroom washed my face and fixed my hair then ate breakfast and dragged Armin out of the apartment. While walking we talked about schooling and how he was enjoying NYU. Armin and I have known eachother since we were children. I had told Armin that I was moving to New York and he had already been planning to go to NYu so we decided to keep in touch and that we did. From the day I got to New York we have seen eachother everyday. I cant say that we dont argue because we do. Being with eachother afternoon to late at night did take a toll on you especially when sometimes it was early monring til late at night. But he is all I have and hes my best friend so I dont mind spending time with him even it is eeryday. Hes always understanding when I want to walk to work alone or just want alone time. Hes not pushy at all. Normally when Im at Titan publishing he's at school so that does give us time to be separted. A sudden warmth overcame me and I smelled coffee nd pastries. I knew we were here. The clicking of keyboards filled my ears. I walked to the back knowing thats where i'd find her.
"Mikasaaaa." I called. 
"Eren!" She giggled. "Im sorry I couldnt comeover yesterday I was finsihing unpacking. God its been more than 5 years since I last saw you and thats when mom and da-" 
"They arent my parents anymore Mikasa. So please dont refer to them as that. You dont need to apologize for yesterday because youre here now." I laughed embracing my older step sister.
"I know Eren. Sorry i forgot."
"You cut your hair?" I smiled looking at her shorter hair that came about shoulder length. 
"Yeah! I didnt tell you what happened?" 
"No you didnt, tell me." 
"I will after work. As you can see we have alot of costumers." She pointed at the room that only had 3 people in it. I looked at her and raised an eyebrow. "I was kidding Eren! Dont take everything so seriously. God youre just like Levi." She groaned.
"Does Mikasa have a boyfriend?" Armin smirked at her. He face turned the brightest shade of red youd think fire was about to shoot out of her mouth.
"No! Thats actually what I wanted to talk to you guys about." She whispered. She put the bell on the counter and a sign that read 'ring bell for service' then sh dragged us into the backroom.
"I dont have a boyfriend." She mumbled.
"Thats what you brought us in here to tell us?" I shrieked.
"No! Im um, Im not into boys like you think I am. I like having them as friends but-"
"What are you trying to say Mikasa? Just spit it out." Armin inturrupted. We knew exactly what she was getting at and we were proud of her. She was finally doing something I knew id never have the guts to do.
"Im gay okay? I like girls and I have a girlfriend and were happy together dont fuck this up. If you dont support it then im leaving and youll never see me again." She spoke with her eye closed. Armin and I looked at eachother and smiled. She opened her eyes. "What are you laughing at!" We closed in on her squeezing the life outta her.
"We love you Mikasa. We support you and were so so proud of you for doing this it takes alot of guts and if anyone and I mean anyone doesnt support you tell me and ill kick their ass okay?" I smiled softly looking her in the eyes. Armin nodded agreeing with me.
"Thank you guys. It means alot. Especially from you two because I only care about your opinions. I love you too you big teddy bears." She squeezed back almost twice as hard. Then the bell rang. 
"Ugh." 
"Hello welcom- LEVI!" Mikasa spoke but then trailed off into a yell."Youre back from Paris? Already?" 
"Mikasa let me meet this Levi guy youre always babbling about." I walked out and saw her blushing. I ruffled her hair then saw the man behind the counter. It was my turn to blush. Shit. Hes beautiful. Shit. Shit. Shit.

AN: Thanks for reading guys! Chapter 2 will be up sometime next week or whenever I have a another burst of energy. Im working on another story as well once I hit 10 chapters on it ill post it here :) 
xoxomay