Some things always end..

Let it go it said to me..

"Let it go" it said to me in it's dark voice."You know I'm better than it".

I looked at it, disbelieving.'Should I go and never come back? Should I give up my soul to this tempting..demon may I say? '

'No' I shook my head.'I can't disapoint them, no matter what'.

As it saw this,  it's smile grew wider showing it's bright withe fangs."They'll notice eventually.They will see how you don't fit their standars and how you're slowly fading" it said while seeing me inching closer to it..slowly..painfull slow.

'NO!I I CAN'T' I thought with fear.'So many friends I made..I can't disapoint them and him!' But I saw that I  stepped closer to it.Day by day it slowly took over me and the I noticed.

I made an account.And even wrote something.

It took over me and I faded.And I still am fading from this damn site I still hold on to with a finger.No correction, am right now.

'Should I let go?'
'No of course not how could I even think of that!' I thought hitting myself with my hand.Someone had to punish me after all..

But yes of course I've noticed how I started to..get affectionate towards it.It became one of my daily tasks to read&review on it.Write cheer- or hatefull comments and slowly gaining other peoples attention, even tho I have no opition of making friends there I know it was destiny.To be there.Just like he told me.

~"You know I'm better than it"~

'Yes' it was right.I actually had more fun there it made me feel..happy and nice but it also made me feel..

Bad

I feel like I'm betraying my friends.Like I'm betraying everyone by letting go of it, what raised me into the fanfiction community.It's almost like leaving your mother-no your family behind.With the knowing that when you officially do,they'll start hating you and maybe even leaving you.And you'll have to start again.Well it doesn't work with family like that but you get what I mean.

"But you said it yourself"
It said brushing the hair out of my depressed face. "And you never said you regretted it.You should leave it alone.I'm better and we all  have  so much fun together.Your time spend by my side is worth."

I smiled as I realised something.Maybe letting go was hard.I guess it was after feeling bad by it.But sometimes you..have to let go and if it really was that importand..you come back and the friends you made that actually were real..stay by your side..

"Yes...you're right Fanfiction.net"

[Who guessed what I meant first gets metioned in the next "chapter"]