Temporary | Calum Hood

Chapter 1

I can see it in her eyes. That's not her. She's not herself lately. What's bothering her? We used to have an amazing life. But now, we're just some fucked up teen. She blows out the last smoke. I can tell she wants more of it. I know that I need to stop her but the problem is I can't move a single muscle. I'm totally wasted and high. We're addicted to it. We can't stop. Drugs are the only thing that keeps us alive right now. It helps us escape. Escape from everything. But of course, there's side effect for it. But now, we just don't seem to care about it. Everything is just so messed up from the moment I wake up. And now i'm stuck in this car with her. I don't know where she's taking me but I can feel that she has no idea where to go too. She just keeps driving. 

"Where are we going?" I asked. I don't know if she can hear me or not. 

"Nowhere." She replies, not taking her eyes off the road. She's going faster and faster. I started to feel uneasy and afraid. Kinda funny that I feel fearless when I'm doing something illegal before but feel afraid when i'm stuck in a car with someone who has no idea where they're going with full speed. 

"Stop." I said hoping that she knew what I mean.

"Stop what?" She said. But this time, she's looking me straight in the eye. Her eyes holds a lot of emotion.

"We need to stop whatever we're doing. It's just so wrong. I knew I should've reject your offer. This is not who we are. We're better than this." I said. 

"There's no use to regret everything now. It's too late to change." She said.

"JUST STOP THE CAR!" I shouted at her. She's up to something and I knew it's not good. I need to stop her before it's too late.

"NO! THE WORLD IS A BETTER PLACE IF WE'RE GONE. WE'RE A DISSAPOINMENT. WE'RE JUST A DISGRACE! NO ONE WILL NOTICE IF WE'RE DEAD ANYWAY!" She yelled back. I knew it. She wanted to be gone permanently. She wanted to kill herself. My heart skips 8 beats at once as soon as I saw a big truck heading our way. She's been driving on the opposite lane. The light from the truck was so bright that caused me to close my eyes shut. We're about to collide with the truck. "I love you and i'm so sorr-"

A dream! The same dream! I've been having the same dream lately. Why? 

"Nightmare huh?" An unknown voice speaks. It was dark. I can barely see anything. I reach for the light switch. A figure was standing beside my bed as soon as I turned on the light.

"Cher. You scared me to death." I said placing a hand on my chest. 

"Not as much as you scared me with all the yelling." Said my one year older sister. 

"Sorry. It's just the same stupid nightmare i've been having this past few months." I said. 

"You know, you should listen to mum when she asked you to book an appoinment with a therapist." She said taking a seat on my bed.

"So that they can label me as 'problematic'. No Cher, it's just a nightmare. It's not like something bad were about to happen right?" I said. My body's are all sweaty and I could really use a shower right now. 

"Well yeah. But don't you think it's getting worse?" She frowned. I know that she's worried about me. Just like mum and Mikey did. But I think that it's not a big deal at all. 

"Can we not talk about this? Today were supposed to be a great day. I mean Mikey's coming home! Are you not excited about it?" I said in excitement. Mikey's been busy since they released their new album. I know that he has been spending most of his 3 years hiatus with us but still, i missed him. 

"Of course I missed him." Cher said smiling.

I head downstairs after I've done with dressing. The smell of mum's signature french toast filling my nostrils when I reached the kitchen door.