Clueless <JK FanFic> (Soon)

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Mornings, oh how I hate Monday mornings. That feeling when you just realize that you have to get out of bed and go to school. Which in my case is, hell. The Cliques, Titles, Stereotypes, you name 'em. All that nonsense is in the place where I supposedly go to "learn". Teachers? They don't even give a crap, they just stand on the sidelines all the time. While all around them, hell is going down. Who am I? I'm Lee Hyun Kim.
Family? Mom. No one else. If you think my Mom and I are close, we really aren't, if you put us in one room it'd seem like there's a giant wall in the middle of it. Friends? Didn't need any. Crush? Don't see why I'd have one.
My life isn't the sweet school girls life. Oh heck no, people despise me, which I'm honestly glad for. I'm not cute nor am I sweet, sensitive? No. Honestly my life hasn't really ever treated me well, I was supposed to have a complete family but all that came crashing down once I turned eight years old. What a great way for my early teens to start right? Up until I was 15 I believed all those stupid fairytales about friends and finding love, that crumbled down too. Thanks to my so called "boyfriend" He and I started dating because he found out that I liked him. But not long after that he found another person who had piqued his interest. After that he started bullying me, pushing me around, Ignoring me and calling me delusional to everyone whenever I spoke of the relationship me and him had. Saying I'm a psycho and a stalker, telling everyone I should go to a damn psych ward even. Cuz of those rumours all my connection to people had burned out. In other words he decided to make my life a complete nightmare just for liking him and dating him. So at one point I snapped. I finally got fed up with the stupid lies and rumours he'd say whenever I was around. What did I do? Oh I sent the whole school a recording of him threatening me with a knife that if I ever tell anyone about the fact we dated he'd kill me. Why? Oh, I don't know, maybe because he really just saw me as a piece of trash that should be thrown out. After that he was the one sent to a psych ward. Glad I got rid of that leech. Ever since then, I changed. I had built walls around me, no one could ever get close to me since then.. why because I didn't wanna be a weak again. Maybe things change.. I thought I would never find trust in someone ever again.. who knew that all the walls I had worked so hard on to build could just all come falling down because of one person. His cute smile that always brightened up my day... the way he'd worry about me whenever I was hurt. The fact that he cared for me when no one else did.. not even my own mother cared enough to talk to me and ask me how I'm doing. The only person I had ever truly adored came back into the picture right when I'd decided I shouldn't be soft and feeble anymore, my life just seemed to hate me lately. Like he was the angel that came to save me from the misery I'd been living in. But I didn't know it yet.. not until we actually met eye to eye for the first time in seven years. It just took one smile and word from him to make me fall to my knees and cry out everything i'd been feeling. Hilarious right? That only happened in my mind sadly.. I wish I could have done that but not when I've worked this hard to be what I am now.