I don't understand [Don't bother reading]

I'M DONE !

I swear, everytime i talk to you its with good intentions and yet it always ends with you screaming at me, because I did somthing out of order. I always have to walk away with my head held low as I take the blame for it as usual. All I want is an apology so I sit waiting for hours after sending mine to you and still don't receive a message. But nonlinear I go crying off to a friend who is already having a hard time and make everything worse for her. Again I apologise. And finaly hours later a reply from the first incident, I almost thought things were gonna be ok. I was proven wrong. A meek apology for the severity in which he "tore into me" in his outburst and to finish it off, he dosent want to be friends anymore. Am I over reacting, i just can't bare to see a friend leave me. It's like my mental state went from 0 to -12. I can't bare it. Weather it's the right decision or not for today (the day after) I've decided to be a mute, not to everyone, just the people that care, the people that ask me if I'm ok, there the people I should associate with, those who don't think twice. Can happily walk out of my life. I really tried. But it still came to this. Maybe I'm wrong and he's over reacting but for now I think I'm done.