Dear Margaret

What now?

I was really going crazy. I had just written my exams, and we would have a 2 month vacation gap. So I opted to texting her once. She usually used to reply. But she didn't this time. She saw the message, but didn't reply. It really pissed me off, and being the really insane person that I was, I started sending a text everyday even though I wasn't getting any replies. So I spoke to Natalie about it. She said that Margaret spoke to her about me behaving like this. Margaret didn't like my behavior, because she was scared that her parents might say something,  she didn't want me to send her texts everyday. Well if she  knew that I was texting her then the  least she could have done is reply to them. She didn't . But yeah that day I  stopped sending her "hi "messages.

     One day I heard that she had an Instagram account. So yeah you guessed it, I made one too. Just because I was overly obsessed with her. She had a public account so I started following her. But she didn't follow me back. So I sent her a text asking her what her problem was. She told me that nothing was wrong and that she just didn't see that I had made an account. At least thats what she says

      One night I was just so depressed about the situation, I was listening to songs while on my bed , and the songs were being played out of a random playlist. I was thinking really hard about her and was feeling really bad. Then the songs started going weirdly with the situation. Like, the playlist started playing the song "You and I " by one direction. I tried to hold back my tears, and I almost succeeded until the next song came up, "History" by one direction again. I burst into tears. I couldn't hold them back anymore. I just couldn't. I cried myself to sleep that night.

     So the next morning, the first thing I did after I woke up was say sorry, for behaving in that way. She did see it and replied that it was okay. She also said that she didn't want me to text her over and over again because it was her mom's phone and she didn't  handle it. So the vacations passed just like that and 10th grade began.

     We both were in the same class as each other, but Sam, Albert, David were all in the other class. I felt really sad. But there was another guy with me. Roger. He is a really good guy and we used to hang out often. So it was fine by me. I don't know what I was thinking about when I thought that being in the same class as her would be awesome. It really wasn't. She wouldn't even speak to me. And I made a new friend , Rachel in this year. I mean we were already friends but not that close.

    One day, there was this debate competition, and we were all a part of it. Well some of us. Natalie, Kaitlyn, Albert, Roger , David and Ashley Benson weren't a part of it.
So if we did well we would get selected for the best round which was in some other city. I didn't get selected , but the rest of them did. So the day came when they all had to go to that city for the competition and the stay would be for almost 10 days.