Explicit [GirlxGirl - Complete]

Chapter 23

Chapter 23

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I take a deep breath and then step towards her. She's got her back to me, headphones in and she's staring at her notebook as she scribbles down answer from another folded piece of paper. I can see Riley's beautiful penmanship and her name in the top corner of the page. She was the smartest in our class. Anything she couldn't figure out in the first three minutes would be cracked in another minute. Questions that stumped teachers could always be solved by her.

My hand tightened on the strap of my bag. I pressed my lips together, looked to the side as if that would make me feel less angry, but when I turned back to look at Liza, it still swelled up inside of me. It was like anything I did was not enough to compare to Riley. Liza could use me. She could stomp me into the ground and call me all the names she wanted. It would still be okay with me.

But I had nothing in return.

I looked down. The frown hurt as I tried to muster up the courage to tap her on the shoulder.

Just as I was going to turn and walking back inside the school entrance, Liza turned around.

She ripped out her earphone. She glared at me.

"What the hell do you want?"

I thought she might attach 'freak' to the end. I guess that was a good start if she didn't begin with calling me names.

I fumbled with the strap of my bag. I bit my bottom lip.

Now that I'd gotten her attention I kinda just wanted to die right here. In front of her. But I also didn't want to die. I just wanted her back.

"I'm not..."

"Not what?"

"Please..." I stumble over my words. I bite my lip, trying how best to word the bomb I'm about to throw at her. But it's simple when it comes down to it. All that is making it complicated is my own self. My lack of social skills and the deep darkness that has been following me like a shadow also play a large role in it. I need to stop blaming it all on those things. It's me. I know that, but I'm working on changing that.

That's the push that I need. The words flow out like they're punched out from my chest. I clench my fists by my side and stand taller.

Liza takes notice. She raises a brow.

"I had nothing to do with what Lianna did. She and I are not friends. Not ever. I don't plan on being her friend ever. I—" It was going so well until now. I swallow down the lump in my throat. The next words were hard. Harder to say because they meant so much o me. "I only want to be your friend. Best friend. Forever."

It was corny. Too much at once, but it also felt like it wasn't enough to convey how special I thought our relationship was.

Friendship, Maya. Relationship means too much. More than you deserve and more than you'll ever get.

Liza is speechless. Her eyes widen like she's seen a ghost. Her mouth makes an 'o' shape.

I lick my lips, looking down at hers. I imagine pulling her into my arms like a romantic film.

No. Stop.

Then it hits me fully as to where we are. This was the turning part of what we had between us. Out at the edge of the parking lot, the edge of the curb where she was sitting at the table and benches outside the cafeteria. And I'm standing there beside her.