Never Have I Ever

1 - Leaving

Growing up from primary to high school all he ever wanted was to quick being an adult, to work and having cash in hands. Having a dream job, house and leaving all the struggles he felt and faced during the days. He often found himself says 'fuck this shit. Im done and so over it'

He never thought that he will be so attached to the family that he wanted to leave so badly. Life hits you hard when you don't see whats ahead waiting for you.

Because he realised death doesnt know age. All he wanted was to have more quality time with his family. He didnt have much time with his grandfather, so he wants to make up for his grandmother, parent, siblings, aunts and so on.

He wanted a big family. He now has it. It filled with his little cousins and uncles. Perspective changes when he grew fond with the innocent lives. He wanted to protect them from the cruel world. He loves his grandmother, so he often forced himself to cook or help her cook, doing the housework chores. They're tiring him but at some points he stop.

He wants to spend time with his mother. But he couldnt stand her. His mom wants this, he tried but he failed. They argued alot, but time heals. They still love each other though.

The siblings. He was never close to them until now. They bickered and as a sensitive bitch, he always cried. Well, thats him. He tried to be nice by finding their comfort because in the end, he has them.

This big family opens his mind towards the world. He has his guard up and being more reserved.

Now, he is in college doing what best for. He got his dream course, but at times it is starting to fade. In the first semester, being away from his family, he didnt feel that much longing feeling. The second and third, he cried some other times at nights. He thought alot of things. Well, lifes suck.