Chapter One:
You’ve got to be kidding!!
So let’s start from the beginning. It was eleventh grade and I was crushing on this boy Demonte he was this cute straight boy in my school or so I thought he was. What happened was one day we started talking and he started opening up to me telling me about who he was, what he liked to do, and who he liked. However I wasn’t prepared for what was about to come.
“I don’t know who I am anymore.” He stated. He sounded truthfully confused like something was really bothering him up in that big head of his. Trust me if you would see him in person you would understand why I said that.
“What do you mean? You can talk to me you know that right?” I mean yeah I had a crush on him but when it came to just being there for someone when they needed to vent I was there. No matter if I liked the person or not. That’s just the type of person my mother brought me up to be.
“I’m just going to be straight forward with you. I like a boy, I mean I never have before and I never thought I could which is why I’m confused and I don’t know what to do.” He said that all in one breath. I mean I heard what he said but I thought I was going crazy. Here I am getting to know this boy and he has a crush on another boy you’ve got to fucking kidding me right now.
“I mean I don’t know what to say. I mean do you see yourself being with the boy? Or is it just something sexual?” I ask trying to figure out if this situation was something real and just one of those midnight fantasies.
“It’s both. But it’s not just one guy that I’m crushing on.” He sounded nervous when he got to that last part. It’s not just one guy? I mean I don’t know what to say to that this is confusing to me. “But listen can we continue this conversation tomorrow? I have to go set up for dinner. Meet me in the entrance staircase for 8:30. Okay?” He asks, kind of demandingly.
“Yeah –.” That’s all I have time to say before he hangs up the phone.
