Just sleep

Night was their beloved friend, night was the place where their real souls lay.

"Are you already sleeping?"

"Not yet." I'm facing my own demons.

"Would you mind if I rest my head on your chest? Would it bother you?"

Come closer, he'd have said, but just nodded in the dark leaving the words in the loneliness of his mind.

Chanyeol felt the pressure of Baekhyun's head when he touched his body and almost stopped breathing surprised by the absence of weight of his lover, just like his moves on the stage.

His skin was so bright and pure, Chanyeol hardly managed to swallow up his tears. His fingers were running slowly from the forehead to the chin feeling how soft to the touch Baekhyun's face was.

"What are we going to do?"

"Just sleep." Baekhyun looked at the other with a questioning expression. "We can't be so close, you know we can't."

"Please, just for tonight. Let's pretend this night is the infinite."

In the middle of the night, with wide-awake eyes looking at the darkness painted on the ceiling, Chanyeol laughed while trying to hide the chaos between his lungs.

"What?"

"You've never been so quiet before. Suho would be very impressed."

Baekhyun slapped gently Chanyeol's stomach and abandoned himself in the scented skin while listening carefully to the reassuring rhythm of his heartbeat. He really didn't feel like talking that night, he needed to capture every single move, every single sound.

And when the sun rose the next morning and the sky has been colored in peachy tones, Chanyeol closed the door of Baekhyun's room behind him and never returned as a lover, only as a caring friend.

Just sleep.

The hardest part is letting go of your dreams.

(Sleep, My Chemical Romance)