Killing me softly

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"dont stooop . doin what you doin "

every time you move to the beat it gets harder for me and you know it know it know it"

"heyy alecia" thats too loud . turn it off were going in a bit "

"okay mom"

alecia's POV

hi , im alecia ..

im 14 years old

i have a lukemia ..

my doctor sai's that i need to live my life like a normal people , i always act like im healthy and happy because i need to . everytime i see an individuals that is being happy with their families (im not telling that i dont love my family) but i am not happy that much .. because every time that when i feel happiness with them there's so many word's that is going through my mind like "hey alecia that's not for forever" and sometime's.. "alecia eventually youre gonna die" but i dont let that only word's will ruin my life ..

yess .. its so hard for me to be that happy .. but thanks to god he invented movies, books and especially music.

i love it when i watch movies (especially the drama one) because it is like im living the life of the characters in it , and it makes me like i lived twice or even more .and i also love reading books like how i watch movies .. and also the last, , music .. it makes me inspired ..and i also love to capture some pictures and post it on my wall . . and i wish .. someday . i will find that something or someone who will give that my real happy moment ..