The last time

" With all the smiles you brought me, all i did was to hurt you..Im sorry"

         The school hallway is always crowded, noisy during breaks and dissmissal time and that includes my friends except for me, im not the type of person who talk the hind of a donkey, i'll just talk when they ask me or if they're going to tell me about somethings. And there's this girl who makes my day bright always, she keeps on making me smile and makes me laugh for minutes. We've been together for 4 years already time flies so fast, she never changed she's sweet and makes my day meaningful always.

         But as time goes by she gets annoying. She keeps on texting and calling me, whenever i didn't answer her she's going to annoy me even more like she'll text me endlessly even tho im not responding. 

         I got home from school, im exhausted, im lack of sleep for the past days and i just wanna sleep all day but she won't even let me so i decided to told her "Can't you give me some space?My brain's drained out and you're here annoying me" i blocked her from all of my social media accounts and i didn't answer her calls, oh c'mon can't she just give me a chance its just for a week she's not going to die for not talking to me, im not even her world. for goodness sake.

       After a week my body's feeling at ease already because im free from all of my school works, and finally!! i'll have the chance to get a sleep. after like 4 hours my mom woke me up and told me that my girlfriend's wating for me downstairs. I threw my pillow at my cabinet out of anger, this is my only chance to get a good rest for a tiring week for goodness sake! and here she is making me more irritated towards her. As i go down the stairs i look at her blankly, while she's smiling at me widely " Let's go for a walk, i missed you so much" she said while holding my hand " Im tired okay? Let me take a rest " when im about to turn my back she pulled me outside ughhh well i got no choice.

       We walked like for hours and i keep on nagging that i wanna go home and take a good sleep but she never listens! We both sat at the bench. We remained silent for 5 minutes, she held my hand and said "Lyndon, look at me" i looked at her blankly " Are you tired? tell me" she said, i didn't answer her. She asked me again and that made me annoyed " Yea im tired of your voice, your face, and you. You keep on annoying me, can't you see that im too busy and you keep disturbing me you're just a burden to me" i told her out of blue "you're free..happy 5 years thank you for being the part of my life..i love you"  she said  tearing up while telling me those, i turned my back at her and walked home alone. 

     After 5 months, i realize that i made a huge mistake. I unblocked her from all of my social media accounts and texted her " Im sorry i didn't mean to say that" but she's not active lately I called her but she's not answering. So i decided to go to her house. His younger brother ran towards me "Heyy its been a long time since you visited here" he told me smiling i patted his head and asked " Where's your sister?" his smiling face turned to deject "she's not here anymore, she didn't even talk to me before she moved out  last  month" my heart suddenly break into pieces, what have i done, i saw my girlfriend's mother and asked her "Good day aunt, where's Tilly??" her mother told me that she moved out last month and didn't tell me where she is specifically and where is she studying. 

10 years have passed.. and im still here longing for her.. 

      While Im busy typing, i suddenly feel dizzy but i didn't mind that. And suddenly everything went black. 

      I woke up and realized that im in a hospital "You made me worried dude, you collapsed unexpectedly we all panicked so i brought you here"my friend told me. "You're Mr.Lyndon right? here's your prescription, don't stay up late, don't drink coffee for the mean time and avoid eating too much instant foods and always eat your breakfast before going to work that's all " her voice sounds familiar, I looked at her face and she looks like Tilly. Before she could turned her back at me "Tilly?" i asked she nodded and asked why, I started to tear up, lots of things changed in her. She looked at me emotionless "Im sorry but i gotta go" she's not the cheery Tilly i used to know, and i know why she's like that. Its because of me, what i have done. 

The last time i saw her..she's crying

     

Im sorry Tilly.. Im still hoping that someday you're going to forgive me, and when that day comes im going to win you back.