Honestly , I think I'm going crazy.
I cant do right, think straight, I'm going crazy every second, I cant help it.
Whats wrong with me? Do I need to check myself in, physic home ? I cant control myself its hard I want help but don't know who to call or who to talk to. I have one good friend and one amazing family that I'm afraid to talk to.
cause I think there going to judge. I'm a terrible person.
I cant take it anymore, I wanna scream and let it all out, the pains and crys I feel inside that no one knows .
Maybe i need to take pills, like my mother said. Its not my fault I cant help it.
I take a knife just to feel the pain and smile at the blood as it flows from my flesh. You dont understand what it feels like to be in a deep deep depression. Nothing is ever the same, my feelings change my emotions exploded into piece of shards glass that. I step upon because it's to hard to put them back into the piece of perfection that it was in when the hand maker molded a 1996 dollar piece.
Fri Oct 5 2018
~jessica Smith
