When A Heartbeat Breaks

Chapter 12 - A broken heartbeat

~~Sam's POV~~
I can't stop crying. I don't know what's wrong with me. Her grip around me only tightened when I asked her to let go. I missed her hugs so much... So fucking much. But, I'm also angered. Angered that she just shows up expecting me to forgive her... Even though she said I don't have to that's not the point. Shush.

"Your saying this but you seem to forget you left me in a heartbeat!"

"And that heartbeat broke me." She replied back.

"W-what?"

"Ever since I sent you that message I couldn't forgive myself. I know what's been going on with you at home and I can't believe I was so selfish... And I never liked Chad. If he doesn't like or approve of something he'll hit it... He didn't like or approve of my actions so he hit me! I hated it every time! I'm so sorry... I needed you so badly but I decided to try and get rid of you instead. Please don't hate me... I hate myself every day.. blame myself everyday. Hurt myself every day. The thought of you always runs around in my head 24/7. When I'm asleep or awake. With somebody or alone. Doing something or not! When I saw you with that bruise on your face, I cried when I got home. I left school early because I didn't want to be caught upset. I'm so sorry... I-" That was enough. That's all I needed to hear. I turned around in her arms and engulfed her in a hug, soaking her shirt with fresh tears.

"I was so scared.. so scared I could never hold you or hug you again... So scared I could never see that smile. Hear that laugh. Hold you like I used to.. so scared I could never hear that voice again. The one that sends me to sleep, and Wakes me up... I would have helped you. Fought Chad off for you, been there for you.. you didn't have to throw me away," we where both crying now. More like watering a river, but oh well. I hugged her so tight I'm surprised she could breathe.

I pulled away, wiping the tears from my eyes. She did the same, but took my hands afterwards.

"Im sorry... I was so scared. I didn't want Chad to hurt you, and thought I would be more of a problem for you in this world..."
She took a deep breath,
"I know it's alot to ask," She said, barely above a whisper, "But will you take me back?..." She asked carefully. I froze at this. So many thoughts running through my head. The main one though. I can only see her in school. And even then I won't be able to hug her and hold her.

"No.. I mean, I don't know... There's your friends everywhere now, I won't ever be able to hug you, hold you or any-" I was cut off.

"I'm going to come out," she stated. Wait what?

I looked up at her in shock. "If you do that everybody will hate you and pick on you!" I told her.

"I would much rather be with the person I love, be who I am and having everybody hate me, than be miss popular, having to wear that horrible clothes, with an abusive boyfriend and be fake." Her words made my eyes water. She wants me other than the rest of the school? I find it very hard to believe, but I would like to anyway.

"Alright then.." I said with a shaky voice, with a little laugh and alot of smile.

"Really?" She asks in disbelief.

"Yeah.." I smiled, "I'll protect you through it, so people don't hurt you," I smiled at her.

She grinned so big her cheeks drowned her eyes. I wrapped my arms around her waist and held her.

"I'll never let you go again," she muttered against my ear.