James POV
I woke up around noon as always. Its been 2 days since I've talked to Madeline. I thought about her like crazy. I wrote down her number on a piece of paper and thought about calling a million times. I sat at my computer desk and typed the number into my phone. I wasn't sure if I should call or text. Im not very good at talking to I guess I'll just text. I picked up my phone and started typing trying to sound as cool as possible.
Hey Madeline. Its James, I was wondering if I could see you again?
As soon as I pressed send I regreted it. What if I was being to pushy and she didn't even like me? I stared at my phone for several minutes until the screen lit up and showed that I received a text. I picked up my phone as fast as I could, once I read it I was disappointed. It was my mom.
No going out tonight, stay home and watch your sister David and I are going out.
David is my stepdad, he was a complete jackass. He always told me to do things and if I didn't do them or messed something up..he would hit me. I didn't reply. I layed down on my bed and scrolled through ny tumblr. Looking at pictures with words about Love and hope made me sick to my stomach. I guess thats just apart of depression. A few minutes later I heard a door slam. I knew exactly who it was. "JAMES!" I heard my stepdad yell through the apartment. I slowly got up and walked towards the living room. "Yes?" I replied not really caring for what he had ro say. "Where is your sister!?" He said obviously drunk. "I dont know? At her friends house where she said she'd be maybe?" I said sarcastically looking away. "Dont talk to me like that!" He stepped closer. "I didnt even do anything wrong why the hell are you getting mad at me!?" I said louder than I intended to. Before I knew it my face was burning and aching in pain. I just looked down as always and walked towards my room slamming the door and locking it. "YOUR SO WORTHLESS! THIS FAMILY WOULD WORK SO MUCH BETTER WITHOUT YOU HERE! YOUR NOTHING! YOUR JUST A WASTE OF SPACE!" He yelled throughout the house. I hated yelling. It was funny though..almost everything he yelled to me..was already exactly what I thought about myself. I put my headphones on putting the music on full blast. But I could still here him yelling. I made my way to my restroom and opened my special droor. It had my razer, siccors, a lighter, a pack of smokes, and a small knife. I opened the small restroom window and stood next to it lighting a cigarette taking it in. As I heard my dad yell, I grabbed the razor and pressed it into my hand moving it across my skin leaving a trail of blood. I stared at it for a while and rinsed it off under the sink. As I looked into the mirror I examined my cheek. It was red, I could tell it was ganna leave a bruise. I finished up my cigarette and layed on my bed, and fell asleep. Once I woke up I loooked at the clock, it was midnight. I got up and walked around the apartment, passing by my sister Isabella's room. Since shes just ten she was already asleep. My parents were still out so it was just me and my sister. I sat on the couch turning on the tv when I felt my ohone vibrate. As soon as I looked at the screen there was a smile on my face. It was Madeline.
Meet me at the park in 30?
I grabbed my jacket and pulled my hoodie over my head leaving the apartment. I walked a few blockes and made my way to the park. I looked around at the trees like always before I spotted Madeline sitting on the same bench as last night. She picked up her head to look at me. "Hi." She said with a smile, which made me smile as well. That was very rare. "Hey." I sat next to her on the bench keeping my head down so whe wouldn't see my cheek. Thank God it was Winter. "So whats up?" She said trying to make conversation. "Nothing much..what about you?" I asked. "Eh, my day was pretty shitty as always so yeah, just a normal day." I just kept my head down. "Whats wrong?" She said looking at me. I just looked back. She saw my bruise. "What happened?" She asked. "My stepdad is a bitch..." Was all I could reply. "He hits you?" She asked sounding hurt. "Yupp...every chance he gets." "Im so sorry." She said leaning in giving me a hug. I dont know why, but for some reason I felt comfort shen she did that. "Does your mom know?" She asked pulling away. "Nope, shes a doctor so shes at work a lot. He only does it when shes not home." I said. "And what about the bruises?" She asked. "Well this is the first time its bruised." I replied looking down. "Hey...do you wanna crash at my house tonight?" She randomly asked. I looked up at her "Sure." I said kind of nervous. We both stood up and started walking towards her apartment. We walked the whole way in silence. Even though I slept all day..I still felr weak and tired. We reached her apartment and made our way inside. We quietly entered making our way to her room. It was a nice looking room. Mostly band posters on the walls, a tv, dresser, your average things. "You can sit on the bed, Ill be right back." she said making her way into the restroom. I sat there looking around just waiting. When she came out she was wearing a black t-shirt and shorts. She sat next to me on the bed..and the first thing I noticed...was her scars. I guess I stared too long so when I looked up she was starring at me. "Sorry..." I said quietly looking at my hands. "Its fine." She said examing her scars. "Im proud of them." It surprised me that she thought of her scars like that. Looking at her scares made me feel bad. I cut all the time, but imagining someone doing it too, especially Madeline, made me feel sick. I looked at the clock and it was already 2. "Well...you wanna go to sleep?" She asked standing up. "Yeah sure." I replied standing up as well. She reached in her closet and grabbed me a blanket. "You can sleep on there." She said pointing to the small couch in the corner of her room. "Alright, I said making my way to the couch taking off my jacket and shoes. "I hsve some basketball shorts you can borrow." She said holding some black shorts. "Yeah..sure." I said grabbing them making my way to the restroom to change, then stepped back out. When I walked out of the room, Madeline was already asleep in her bed. I msde my way to the couch getting comfortable. I knew I was going to grt in trouble for this, but I was with Madeline, so I didnt really care. I layed there for a ehile until I drifted off to sleep.
"James...James." I woke up to Madelines voice as she shook me lightly with her hand. I opened my eyes to look at her. "Yes?" I answered. "I um..I had a bad dream. Could you...could you lay with me?" She said looking down embarrassed. "Yeah..sure, what time is it?" I said blushing a bit. "4 o'clock" She said getting on the bed. I layed behind her as we both got under the covers. "Are you okay?" I asked. "Yeah..I am now." I didnt respond, I just smiled. "You probably think Im silly dont you..." she said sounding sad. "No, I dont, I have nightmares all the time. Im just glad Im here with you to help." I said. "Yeah me too...James?" "Yeah?" "Could you...wrap your arm around me?" I suddenly got a little nervous. "Sure." I slowly put my arm around her waist. I wasn't sure why, but having in her in my arms just felt right. It gsve me a warm feeling inside, almost like I was happy. I liked it. "Thank you." she said. "No problem." Those were the last words, and then we both fell asleep.
