September 10, 2012
My first love Sean is getting married today.
Honestly, i am not really sure of my feelings at the moment..
Am i happy? Sad? Bitter?
I am clueless
When i look back to all the trials and happy moments we shared, parang may panghihinayang..
I should be Happy! Really happy, coz at least he already found the girl
that he would meet at the altar..
Parang ako dapat ang taong yun....bitter...
It’s been years!
Many years..
but am is still not over you?
Wake up, !
i should be happy!
Plastic!=(
Okay, i am happy with my skaterboi, i just don’t get the fact that i am still affected that Sean is getting married,
i Know he has three kids now, he is happy with his partner, but the getting married idea,
di ko pa siya totally maabsorb..
Maybe, because that is a new chapter in his life,
life without me
Looking back again...
we almost had the idea of getting married,
na may date na talaga and all, pero hindi nangyari..
i have learned that you should not plan the future perfectly,
because,
if it will not happen, you would be having this kind of feeling..
a feeling na di mo maintindihan...
Eto ako ngayon,
looking on the things that you gave me,
oo hindi ko pa tinatapon
o kaya sinusunog.
Nagpapakabitter na naman ako
Hihiramin ko ung line ng onemore chance ulet...
“sana ako na lang, ako na lang ulet”
But life is not really like a movie,
na sa bandang huli,
Masaya pa din..
Or a fairy tale, that has a happy ending.
I guess this is it,
wake up!
To you Sean,
I guess i will be writing again, like the first story that i posted..
I hope that you will be very happy..
With the life you have right now..
I am getting a hard time composing this letter
, i really don’t know what to write.
Naisip mo kaya ako ngayong wedding mo?
Or any chance, just a glimpse in your mind, na naisip mo ko?
Na nireminisce mo ang mga nangyari satin before
Our good and bad times?
Mangyari ng nangyari sa buhay natin simula nung nakipaghiwalay ka sakin, maraming nagbago, 360degrees na pagbabago.
