Words from one's self Vol. 2 [ Completed ]

sixteen

The feeling of drowning
No air, couldn't reach the surface
because the negativity is dragging
you down like weighs around your ankles
squeezing your feet in an vice grip
until they become numb
everything's numb, you feel dumb
on how you let this happen to you
because you promised to not be like
this anymore. You've prayed, pushed forward with the good deeds that always would make you feel better, the person you helped. But you found out helping others sometimes leads to them using you then you slip farther down until you're stuck way down there in that deep dark place, the light is so dim when try to come up out of it. You try to come up for a bit then the next day you might be pulled back down again.

This how some ppl in my life made me feel days leading up to the holidays, on the day itself.

Hope this didn't trigger anyone. Thanks for taking the time to read this Wattpadians