The Playlist // Ricci Rivero Fanfiction (On-Hold)

Kabanata 18

Another day starts today, it has been 3 months since umalis siya. Naninibago pa ako dahil usually, nandito na si Ricci sa aking front door at nag-aantay sa akin para sabay kaming dalawa papasok. Pero ngayon, si Azrael na yung nag-aantay. I sighed as I checked my reflection one more time and headed towards the door. 

"Oh, tapos kana pala. Let's go?" Tumango lamang ako at sumabay na sa kanya patungong St. La Salle Hall. Dito kasi kadalasan yung classes ko, since I'm taking up Business. For today, I'm wearing my DLSU hoodie, a black jeans at vans ko. 

We finally reached the classroom at nagpaalam narin kami sa isa't-isa. You know, even though 3 months na kami ni Azrael nag d-date, hindi parin ako nasanay na siya palagi yung kasama ko. Baliw na ba ako, or I'm just used to someone's company? 

"Hi Ina! Parang hindi maganda gising mo ah. What's wrong? Still missing Ricci? I'm sure masaya siya ngayon, but I'm not saying na masaya siyang wala ka ha." Blanche said, na miss niyo siya no? Hahaha. 

"Alam ko naman iyon B. It's just that I'm having a bad headache ngayon, di ko alam bakit." 

"Hmm, alam ko yung mga ganyan mo eh. Siguro buong gabi ka naman umiiyak no? Move on na girl, parang naging kayo eh hindi naman!" Tumawa nalang ako kasabay siya. May point naman siya doon. 

I wonder how he's doing in Australia? Siguro nga mas naging masaya siya doon, kasama ng mga bago niyang kaibigan. Baka nga, he's dating someone na ngayon. That's for the best din naman, at least he's happy. Happy without me. 

Ricci's P.O.V 

I walked down the hallways para sa susunod na klase ko. It's already 9 am here in Australia. 7 am pa doon sa Pinas, first class pa niya. Tumunog yung aking phone signalling na may nag text sa'kin. Before opening the message, my wallpaper showed. 

It was her picture noong nag Starbucks kami. Wearing my jacket, kinunan ko siya ng picture na hindi niya alam. Up to this day, hindi niya pa rin alam na may picture akong ganoon. She doesn't even know I use it as my motivation. 

From Ellie : 

  Hey! I'm at the classroom now, I reserved you a seat :) 

Ellie is one of my closest friends dito. She's actually a nice girl din. And if you're wondering bakit ako nag a-attend ng classes, I actually transferred. I think I'm going to finish up college here in Australia. Sayang, DLSU pa naman yung dream school ko ever since. But if it means giving up my dream school for the girl I love, then I'd be willing to do it. 

To Ellie :

  Sure. Thanks, I'll be right there in a minute! 

15 minutes lang ang ibinibigay ng mga professors sa students to transfer from one classroom to another. Many students complained but I didn't. Kasi, 15 minutes lang din ang ibinibigay sa amin back in La Salle; and La Salle is bigger than my university now. 

Finally, I reached my classroom and saw Ellie and the others. Kumaway ako sa kanila at umumpo narin katabi ni Ellie. Kinuha ko yung isang envelope and started writing something. I wonder if she does this too? Nevermind. 

"Oh, I see you're doing this everyday. The letters are piling now, who are you going to give these to?" Ngumiti lang ako at nagpatuloy sa pagsusulat. Someday, if makakauwi na ako sa Pilipinas and I'm going to see her, I would definitely give all of these. But, mag-iipon muna ako ng lakas. 

    Hi! It's me again. I hope you're doing well there kahit wala ako. I know I might look like a coward sa pag-alis, eh kasi hindi kita kayang tingnang masaya sa iba. It hurts to see you smiling because of him. Pero wala naman rin akong magagawa because you chose him :( I hope to see you soon even if kayo parin. The song for today is If You See Her by LANY. :)) 

                                                                                                                                                     Missing You, 

                                                                                                                                                     Ccing :(

I've been doing this for the past 3 months. Gaya ng dati, nagsusulat parin ako ng mga panibagong playlist baka kasi may pagkakataong maibigay si tadhana at makakanta rin kaming dalawa. Oh! I wonder if she's still part of 90 Degrees Green? I left na kasi, before ako pumunta dito. 

The school bell rang signaling us na magsisimula na yung klase namin. I looked at the time and it's already 9 30 am. I turned on my phone once again at nahagilap iyon ni Ellie. God. 

"Ohhhh! She's pretty, is she your girlfriend?" 

"I wish." 

"Why?" Itong babaeng 'to oh ang kulit! 

"She's actually my best friend when I was still in the Philippines. But, I found out she wasn't having the same feeling as I am having. That's why I'm here. I couldn't take the pain." I only smiled but deep inside, the pain was once again showing up. Shit. 

"Oh. Cliche but I'm sorry, that really happens though. Maybe she'll give you a chance once you go back there. Wait, are you going back?" Hmm, that made me think for a moment. 

"I don't know Ellie, let's just see how things would go." Tumango lamang siya. I don't know pero I keep on checking my phone; waiting for her to call. Ever since I arrived her, I haven't received a call from her. Hindi niya na siguro ako iniisip no? I turned off my phone as the professor went inside the classroom. 

Ina's P.O.V

Lumipas na rin ang dalawang oras and it's finally 9 am! And 9 am means free hour! Lumabas ako ng LS Hall at dumiretso patungong Marian Quadrangle. Memories started flooding back in my head. Dito yung favorite place namin ni Cci. 

Kinuha ko yung notebook na binigay niya noon. He said na I can keep this as my diary para ilabas lahat ng emosyon ko. I didn't know what to write here before pero ngayon, I had all the reasons to write here. 

I wonder if nagsusulat ba siya ng mga ganito ngayon especially tungkol sa aming dalawa? Oh well, I think hindi naman. Baka he's too busy with his life there though. I haven't checked his social medias too; mas nakakadagdag sakit lamang. 

  Hi Cci. Andito nanaman ako, nagsusulat kung gaano ko ni re-regret yung mga ginawa ko noon. I'm very sorry for everything. I know I've said this a million times dito sa diary na'to, but I won't get tired of saying it if alam kong mapapatawad mo ako. Pero, hanggang dito lamang ang mga katagang ito eh. Have you heard LANY's new album? I think so. Kaya the song for today is Thru These Tears. :))

                                                                                                                               Come back because I miss you, 

                                                                                                                               Ina :((

I sighed as I kept the notebook back in my backpack. I still have his number and na mention ni tita Abi na hindi pa niya pinapalitan yung number niya, although may roaming na rin siya. Wala namang mawawala diba? 

Huminga ako ng malalim at pinindot ang call button. I pressed my ears sa aking phone and listened. Nag r-ring but, he's not picking up. I tried multiple times pero wala eh. I gave up as I heard the bell rang. Siguro nga, he removed me from his memory now. Wala na akong nagawa kundi sumuko nalang din.