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i am happy???????

"Hey ,ha- Yoon did you checked the decoration,the caterers and the main entra..." Asked my mother.

While I assured her that everything is fine and I've checked twice.

"Hey,ha- Yoon will you help So- Yi in wearing the gown." You guessed it right it's a big day for me and my sister .

"Hey unnie cummon breath in so that I can zip it up ,seems like you gained weight." I said jokingly.

"Is it something else So- yi .....don't tell me you..."

"Unnie I'll check the banquet hall" I Interupted her .

"You too get ready , yoona you have to be there " she spoke as I was leaving .

"Obviously, unnie it's your wedding I'll make it the best memory of your life." I told her while holding onto my tears.

As everyone left us alone for spending some hearty time unnie's sadness came back "do jimin really loves me or its because he and the others pity.."

"Shut up unnie jimin loves you .He proposed you ,you forgot."

That's right I'm in my life's most tormenting situation .

Unnie is having only few months of her life and she loves jimin.

I went back to my room and as I entered I immediately picked up my diary .

The book where all my treasure is hidden.

The polaroids of jimin ,jimin sleeping ,jimin sulking ,jimin eating ,and even when he's angry

I love jimin I said to myself holding those photos tightly to myself as I sank down in tears.

I hate myself for loving you to the extent where I almost forgot unnie .

I tried once twice but I can't the memories I collected all through these years how can I vanish them forever .
I thought to myself .

'i have to ' as I took the lighter beside my bed .

My hands trembled I put those polaroids in the trash bin while taking one in my hand as I burnt it
I felt a tightening in my chest as if something inside me is burning loud and clear .

I kept crying for an hour unable to control the pain I took that pen knife and bit by bit as I cut my own arm I pain iny heart got numb .

Jimin once forced me to promise him never to do this again and I never did until ....

"I love you but unnie means equally important jimin ,sorry "I murmured while I left it bleeding .

Till my skin got numb.
And pain in my heart got erased for sometime .

I came out after sometime.

Standing in front of me was unnie in a beautiful white gown with detailing of gold and silver threads , decorated with organza flowers.

She looked the most beautiful bride ever unlike me who could barely manage to wear a dress properly I kept covering my arms again and again.

"They arrived So- mi ,let's welcome them " one of the lady shouted.

As all started moving. I stood there for awhile in order to calm down myself I don't want to break down in front of Jimin.

I want him to see me happy .

Fortunately ,I was not alone taehyung, namjoon and hobi came too.
I felt much better.

I went to them to divert my attention but my eyes moved on its own .

There was Jimin right behind me no matter how strong I tried seeing him in that black suit I was about to cry .

But taehyung pulled me back while tightly hugging me .

"Taehyung ,leave me" I said while I gasped for air to breath.

"I know it's hard so don't act all tough when I'm here to help ." He said in a serious tone .

All I did was to sob while he hide ally tears with his smile.

"Jiminie why don't to you go ahead I'll come after sometime ." Taehyung said to jimin while jimin was staring at me .

"I'm fine let's go everyone " I said putting a fake smile on my face.

As everyone moved ahead .

I suddenly felt someone pulling me behind " jimin " I was surprised .

"I am worried ,are you all fine " he said with his sweet voice while patting my head.

Which made me weak . He was suddenly pushed from behind making us fall on the ground .

As I opened my eyes I saw him staring at me .

No this is wrong .....I can't ...no...
I kept saying to myself .

Finally , asking for help .

"I'm sorry I spoiled your dress " he said as he touched his hair.

" This is not the first time ,oppa " I chuckled to him ( referring to a incident at college when he accidentally poured coffee on her instead of taehyung)

Both of us started laughing as we moved ahead.

It was time for ceremony.

" Thanks for being here ,yoona" jimin said because he knew as to why I never confessed.

I smiled back to him.

The both shared their kiss while we applauded them .

I was happy to see unnie smiling and at the same time broken cuz I have no right to love him now..........
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It's been six years unnie died after giving birth to their child .She's cute and more like jimin. Meanwhile i still have no-one to marry . I often visit my neice and jimin on holidays.

Loving jimin was never wrong just because we never together doesn't mean the memories was not worth it each memory I have of him even though I lost my polaroids but those sweet bitter feeling of my one sided love is worth it .

Jimin loves his daughter the most he often say " I love you " to her making me blush.

Because their daughter's name is ha- Yoon.