Love Me when i'm gone.- Kth.jjk

CH-01♡

I hate it and i hate myself even more for feeling this way..

Your bestfriend and your boyfriend being close is cool right??..especially when you're all bandmates right??...But Tae doesn't feel the same way..it  just isn't cool anymore he is hurt..He felt terrible for  feeling this way,but he can't help it..

"Tae..u okay?" Jungkook asked wiping his sweat as they just finished performing 'Anpanman' and they're now getting ready for the next stage..

But Tae doesn't reply..no words come out of his mouth.He just left the room silently..Once he open his mouth he know he is going to break down.He is tired of this...All of this.He wants to end it.But he can't.He love Jungkook.

Jungkook POV.

I was tired,we all are but Tae,he looks so much paler and we didn't get to spend much time together except for the Stage moments but we couldn't do much either..Tours and Concert used to be our happiest moments because we don't need to hide.we can just let it all out.BUt it isn't the same anymore he looks sad and cold to me..And he rejected most of the moments i try to make he either run away or smts he didnt even look at me..

He is unusually quiet which makes me worried but when i ask him i got no reply he just went out of the room.I try to go after him but it was time for my make up retouch so i couldn't..

What makes him like that?is it my fault??..i'll need to ask him later.

Tae POV.

It happened...Always.But i just can't tell Jungkook to stay away from him that i want him all by myself..that he shouldn't touch and let others touch him..But we are bandmates and i cannot do that and Kookie well..he will never understand..

The pain in my chest and how i feel when he touch jimin and when Jimin touch him..yes Jimin,My bestfriend but i can't help it.It's getting out of hand..
But jungkook is clueless as always.. Or not..Maybe he did this on purpose..

Seeing them together is what hurts the most..I can't just let it pass even after all these years.I can't Say 'it's okay' because it is not! And i feel so terrible for feeling this way.But i can't help it..After preparing for The next stage the boys went up to the stage refreshed,the put on a smile,wave at the fans and just basically playing around.They're always happy,it always brung them joy but not for tae..he just can't!.He just wanna go home take a Hot shower and went to sleep maybe cry himself to sleep.He couldn't even out on a fake smile anymore how pathetic is that??.

Author POV.

But then now is not about jungkook or jimin or their relationship now is time for Armys so he tried his best to smile atleast for the cameras..And he did.

But it soon fell when he witnessed Jungkook combing back Jimin's hair from his forehead.He quickly look away with a frown and that's when he realise..He couldn't take all this anymore. All the pent up anger,jealousy,frustration coming back..He blinks his eyes furiously not to cry..he doesnt want to seem weak even though he legs felt like jelly,his head pounding..he muster a smile one last time and they gave their final bow and they quickly headed backstage..

The staffs greeted their 'You worked hard' to them but Tae couldn't even reply..He went straight to the bathroom and lock it,He felt smt warm on his cheeks and he knew he was amready crying..His heart Hurts so much..He always endures this kind of thing but why can't he do now?? Because it kept on happening to the point he questions Jungkook's love for him..Maybe just maybe..Jungkook fell out of love..that can't be true right?

All those stares,hugs,Jimin kissing  Jk's nape,even when Jimin always comes in between them he Always smiles and wave off as if it's nothing..Even when Jimin take JK out for Dinner and Jimin cancelling his  plans with jungkook saying that he will borrow his Boyfriend...he never complain..Not even once But right now..he can't take it anymore..All the members were searching for Tae..It was Jhope who found him and they all went back to their dorms..Taehyung refused to be in the same car as Jungkook and Jimin and that kinda shocked Jungkook  but he tried not to think much about it making mental note that he will talk to Taehyung when they get home..

Tae's team Arrived first so he went straight to the shower and when Jk's Car arrived Jk went straight to their shared bedroom too and search for the older but when he hear the sound of the shower running he immediately assume that Taehyung is taking a shower so he waited for him while laying down on their bed..After about five minutes more Taehyung finally came out dressed in a Black shirt and grey Jogg pants.He didn't even glance at Jungkook not even once he tried his best to ignore him  and if he do look at him he knew he can break down any minute...

But Jungkook isn't having any of it..
"Tae"
Taehyung flinched  as he sat on one of the room sofa..but he continue to  act like he didn't hear Jungkook.
"Taehyung" still no response from the elder so Jungkook walks to him..He kneels down so that he can be on eye level with Tae..Tae still refused so he turn his Head around softly searching for the answer in Taehyung's eye but all he sees is pain..

"Tae-"
He tries but he still got no reply so he grabs his shoulder but what he get in reply shocked and hurt him,pain shot thru his chest.
" Don't touch me." Tae muttered turning away from Jungkook.He grabbed his pillows and extra blanket and he headed out to settle himself on the couch.He is tired afterall..he doesn't want to face Jungkook as of now..He is tired..

A/N- HEY!! TINY(s) how are u feeling today??...I feel great! Haha...Finals coming up so..i'll try to finish before that...Hopefully 1 or 2 Chapters left.Byes..💋