Best Friends Brother

Chapter 20

Clarke

I walk back to Bellamy's room. He has cuts and bruises on his face and a neck brace on. He's still unconscious. I sit in the chair beside him and grab his hand.

"I don't know if you can hear me but I'm gonna talk anyways. When I found you in that closet with the girl it broke my heart. And then the very next day I see on the news you crash your car because your driving drunk. How stupid are you Bellamy. Where you trying to kill your self?"

I stop and take a breath. I hold back my tears.

"I should hate you. I shouldn't be here but I am. And I don't hate you. For some fucking reason I can't. Bell, just wake up. We need to talk. I need to know why you were in the closet with the girl and why you drive drunk."

I kiss his forehead and leave.

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It's been 2 hours of sitting here. Nothing new on Bellamy. He's still unconscious and breathing on his own. The doctors don't know why he isn't waking up, they believe he isn't in a coma. But if he isn't in a coma why isn't he waking up. They ran tests on him and sent them to the lab, their just waiting for the results.

"O, I need to get out of here. Are you gonna be okay?"

"I'll be fine. I'll call Lincoln if I need a ride and call you with any news on Bell. Go home and get some sleep you look exhausted."

"Can I go to your house. I don't wanna go to mine."

"Mi casa es tu casa."

I smile at her and leave. I sit in my car for a minute to breath and just think. I start crying and I punch the steering wheel, I'm so tired of crying. I hate crying. I wipe my tears away and drive to Octavia's house.

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I get to Octavia's house. I reach under the welcome mat and grab the extra key and go inside. I throw my bag and keys on the couch and flop down beside them. Just as I sit down the water works start up again.

"Damnit!"

I try to stop crying but I can't. I can't stop thinking about Bellamy. What happens if he dies, I hate the way we left things. He needs to explain what he was doing in the closet, I need him too.

After 5 minutes I'm still crying. I decide to take a nap and maybe help me calm down. I go into Bellamy's room and flop down on his bed. Even after what happened I still feel safe in his room, for some strange reason. His bed smells like him and it makes me smile. I lay on his pillow and fall asleep with Bellamy's smell filling my nose.

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Have a late(ish) post.
I haven't proof read any of these last few posts, so if there's spelling and grammar mistakes just ignore it. Also I know this chapter is short, idk why.

I'm currently writing a Murphamy story and was wondering if I should start posting that too or wait till this book is over. Idk how long this book will be tho. Suggestions? Thoughts?