To Love A Beast - Absalom x Reader

Chapter 12

A/N: this chapter is a bit smutty so beware!!!

(Your POV)

Absalom leaned down and kissed me like I was the most precious thing in the world. He had his eyes closed and his cheeks were a bit pink. I guess he was just as nervous as I was? Or maybe he's always this passionate?

I expected myself to push him away like I did last time, but this time I just couldn't. He gently pulled me closer to his chest and I felt like I could die. Not die like my life is flashing before my eyes (well maybe) but like I could stay this close to him forever.

I slowly lifted my arms up from his chest, feeling every muscle on his body and slowly wrapped my arms around his neck. He deepened the kiss and I went along with it. I never thought having a man this close to me could feel so good.

I suddenly felt his hands slide down to my hips and pulled my even closer. I jolted and stepped back a bit when I felt a familiar hardness poke my belly. I looked down and saw the same thing poking out from inside his pants. I slowly looked up at Absalom and saw that he had guilt written all over his face.

Absalom- "I-I'm so sorry (y/n)..."

He suddenly released me and looked like he was about to head for the door.

Absalom- "I understand if you don't want me to stay here w-"

He stopped talking the moment I placed my hand on his cheek and caressed his stitches with my thumb.

You- "Um....I...uh....I.....I think I....uh...."

I pulled my hand away from his face and I look down and took a deep breath.

You- "....I think I'm ready."

Absalom- ".......ready? For what my dear (Y/N)?"

I felt a lump in my throat so I swallowed hard and said it.

You- ".........I want to go....all the way with you..."

Absalom- "............"

I didn't hear anything from Absalom so I worked up the courage to look up at him. His cheeks were as red as mine and he had blood coming out of his nostrils.

Absalom- "Wow...I didn't think showing you this side of me would get me THIS far."

You- ".......oh."

I never thought words could stab me. He made me sound like I'm shallow but in a way, I kind of feel like I am. Before I didn't want any part of him but after seeing his whole body I couldn't help but admire it, dang it.

You- "......I'm so sorry.."

Absalom- "Hmm?"

You- "I didn't mean to sound so shallow just because of your-"

Absalom- "N-NO! I-its not that at all! But...are you sure you want to?"

I didn't know what to say anymore, first I said I wanted to but after hearing his point of view, I wondered if I can even go through with it.

You- "I......I don't know..."

Absalom- "What's wrong (y/n)?"

You- "....nothing its just that.....I don't want you to.....do this out of pity."

I felt tears coming up and I tried to fight it but one slipped down my cheek. I was about to wipe it off but Absalom has already beat me to it.

Absalom- "Please (y/n), no tears."

You- "I'm sorry...*sniff*....it just slipped out..."

He suddenly pulled me in a gentle embrace and I couldn't help but wrap my arms around him and bury my face close to his chest. He gently rubbed my back as if he was comforting me.