My name is Patrice

18:11/13

The problem is everyone has to work twice as hard as anything to become what I want

Which is a person who asks for half as much but does it in such a natural manner making me feel that I want to give more

They give twice as much as I deserve

yet half as much as I deem appropriate , it should he natural not forced*( obviously this is describing PT)*

- (new written 6/07/14)

Which I have worked on for a bit of time trying to bulk up a bit more and look more professional, but at the end of the day as I have written in me, why would I want to be someone I'm not?! This makes no sense.

The problem where this arouse from was getting rejected from a job interview with fitness first, now they are a good company with credentials and people who enjoy the brand, but they will only hire people whose arms are mini tree trunks and whose choice of vocab is limited to a few grunt noises and occasional string of words - *( I say this as tried talking to many of them about the politics and what is going on with road works and there answer was amusing and to do with how it was all council fault as it is, when I queried that no response)* - so yet again jobless even though I'm fully trained. not amused

07/08/14

So at work today they were talking about sex and group sex. haven't done many things to do with that, but my main was having a 3some with 2 girls, not a bad time but as one of them was my ex and the other girl had a boyfriend (I do not regret that at all, made sure she knew what she was doing!)

But as I was saying the girl was well up for it and was happy, (*anyway skip that part,as a little different for first time readers or people who don't want to know)*

In the morning, I may have got carried away and did the ex in the shower and alas, she was a bit bigger than me *( I'm a skinny bastard)* and broke my banjo string. it was painful, *(also kinda hilarious :p )* what made it such a wierd sensation was the fact it was an on suite room with the kitchen about 5 meters from the bath room past the bed... While bleeding and being naked

is quite a hard feet, ex made sure the coast was clear, as we took the initiative to not wake her up by use of a shower, so the idea was to go into kitchen an clean in sink or something?!

8/8/14

You ever think, that you are to calm and delivers for some people? For instant I offer a small bit of advice for mtg players an they loom and try to upgrade which is good. so when I ask same of them they do scry everything to peices and ask why I am annoyed with them?!

I try not to as it's just a game, but we all have our vices and mine is loosing to people who do not deserve it, Wednesday was one of those days

Super annoying... so now I talk to Todd an he has his views on my list which is good tbh but I just want confidance with summat I brewed myself*( is that so hard to ask?!)*

L

08/09/14

Yeah so it is a little hard to ask many things atm l, as alp they can see me as is a horny metal head... ofc I an but what I want is totally dofferent, can at the least speak in respectful terms about these ones

09/08/14

Matts stag different events in bath followed by bowling at the lanes in Bristol fun had by all