Why?{A Langst Fanfiction}[Voltron]

Part 8

Warning! Contains Angst!

🌊🌊🌊Lance Pov.🌊🌊🌊
I'm sorry wait does he truly care? Since when? It is my fault the team is not reaching their true potential! I need to train, clear my head.
Just as I was about to stand there is a sharp pain in my arm. Oh right. I had carved to deep...what word was I spelling again? Shiro said it this morning. Was it useless? Or worthless? No it was something new. I can't remember over all this yelling! Why do they care about me now? They never had before, right?
They're pittying me. Pidge tells me to f***off. Shiro doesn't even correct her and Hunk is right there next to her.
He still is my best friend, mi amigo. Even when I can tell he doesn't want me around, it's not subtle either. Hunk just tells me I need to talk less. At first I was hurt. However he is right I talk way to much.
Shiro gives me constructive critisim on my habits and tells me I need to train more. I think he knows I train every night. When he looks me dead in the eyes with the most sincere voice telling me, " If you can keep up we will find someone to replace you."
It's the truth. I don't know if they have been looking long, but I know they want to get rid of some useless, annoying, scrap peice of a paladi...I don't deserve to call myself a paladin. I don't contribute anything to voltron.

That just brings me back. Why would Keith of all people care? Isn't he the one that hated me the worst? Didn't he leave because I wouldn't shut up and I would drag the team down? So why now of all times did he choose to care about me. Do I look that pathetic? Maybe I should've looked in the mirror this morning. I put my make up on...rig-
"Lance I want to know what happened to you. Who did this to you?" Keith spoke softly and as he did slowly reached his hand to me. Before he could however the mice jumped on my shoulder and started the angrily squeak at him. Suddenly I feel a hand in my shoulder. By pure reaction I flinched, hard. Then jerked away and speed walked out of the room. Tears were crawling out from the corners of my eyes.
I know they just pity me they don't care why should they? Wait who touched my shoulder? I didn't get a chance to see because they were behind me and I was mainly focused on Keith.
Making it to my room finally I close the door and lock it with that satifying click. Slowly after my legs have out and my back leaned against the door while my arms hugged my knees and head tucked down.

*knock knock*

🔥🔥🔥Keith P.O.V🔥🔥🔥
"What just happened?" I spoke, still shocked at the reaction of Lance being touched slightly by Hunk on the shoulder.
"What. Just. Happened!?" I said almost yelling. Taking a look around I see Pidge with her hands covering her mouth. Hunk is just staring down at his hand. Shiro has silent tears streaming down his face.
"W-we don't know." Pidge just spoke almost too quiet to hear.
"You don't know why Lance is afraid of physical contact! Or the scar around his neck! I didn't even know he had freckals! Was he captured! Tell me!" I shout at the rest of them team however I was disturbed when Allura entered the room.
The next words she spoke were something I never wished to hear.
"Did Lance not come? He really can't follow simple orders! Shiro I think it's time to replace him as we all discussed before."
Those words.

Those. Words.

"You! All of you are to blame! How could you do this to him! Hunk I'm disappointed and not just with you but every person in this room!" I scream and storm off to go find Lance.

When I arrive at his door I hesitate.

Hesitation

That makes me just as bad as

Them.

What should I do?

*knock knock*
"Lance are you in there?" I asked leaning toward the door more and more.

To my surprise Coran answered the door.
"My boy right now is not the best time. Since you are here the mice and I could use your help." before I know it I'm dragged into the room and my arms are piled high with knives? Is that blood? "Wait what is happening?" I ask.
"Sorry you need to hide those and these" Coran said as he piled more knives.
I did as told and hid them in a drawer.
When I turned around I took full glance of the room. Blood stains were in the floor? Where did the come from and why are there so many gauz wrap packets on the floor aswell?

"L-lance?" I hurried over to the corner where he was having a

Panick attack