It was my first day going to school and I needed claim my school id in the SAS (Student Affair Services) office. When I entered the office, there were already many students forming a line in front of the office desk. I follow the line and in front of me was a student of BSCA, she was 5 feet tall girl and her skin was slightly dark. Since it is a long line, we talked to each other which started in our names down to our fathers name. Both of us were laughing after hearing each other fathers name, her father was Andres and mine was Apolinario. Her name was Patricia, 18 years old and was easy to talk with. Patricia and I became friends after the long personal talk. We got each other school id and started to walk out the door. We walked on different ways because I was going back to my Room and she was going to her classes. We smile and said to each other a goodbye but I answered Oh! Wait! Dont say goodbye and just say see you again because I know that we can see each other again. She smiled and turned around walking away from me.
I entered my small room and organize my things inside, I go outside my room after 25 minutes. It was already Noon so I needed to eat a lunch, I was eating on the table beside an HRM student. It was already my hobby to start a conversation, so after lunch I talked to him about school. After 20 minutes of conversation, I already know many things about him. His name was MJ, 17 years old and he was my mate in the boarding house (not room). He was planning to join the RED CROSS club and he invited me to join. I accepted the invitation and joined the RED CROSS club. I was surprised when I saw Patricia inside the RED CROSS club office. She was also a RED CROSS club member. I saw Patricia with another girl, the girl was wearing the same uniform of Patricia. Patricia introduced her to me, her name was Jangmee and a best friend of Patricia. Jangmee and I became friends and close to each other; they were a humor started about Jangmee and me.
The RED CROSS month was coming, so the officers and members of the club were planning on what to do during the celebration.
During RED CROSS Month, they were many Booths to enter with. I stayed inside the RED CROSS Booth until I saw Jangmee walking towards me. Jangmee put her hands below my shoulder and started to move close to me. In that situation, I understand that Jangmee had feeling for me but I stayed neutral and acted normal. Jangmee was telling me about a guy who chosen her in a booth and I replied who was this guy? And where?. Jangmee bring me to him and that guy saw us and cancelled the Request in the Booth. I feel scared when I saw the guy and I was thinking This Guy is Huge, what will I do if he attacks me. I never showed Jangmee that I was scared and acted like That MAN was Nothing. After that, I went back to the RED CROSS club Booth. A member of the club brings a girl her visitor from the other school inside the Booth. I saw that girl memorizing something, so I walk toward her and offer a guidance. I told her To Memorize it faster, you need to sing it so that you can memorize the words one by one. The girl replied ok and started singing the words she wanted to memorize. I heard someone was walking, so I looked at the windows and saw Jangmee. Jangmee made an unpleasant face and walk away. I feel that jealousy in the air, I think Jangmee thought that girl and I had a relationship. I want to follow her and explain but I did not do it. I just neutralize the feelings I feel with Jangmee and acted like we were jus friends. After the Event, I saw Jangmee walking toward the exit and I said to her I will walk with you into your house but Jangmee replied No and I replied I insist, I will take you home. Jangmee walk faster away from me until one of her classmates talk to him. It was a Boy and they talked to each other while I was just looking to them behind. I thought that Maybe that boy and Jangmee had a relationship so I just take my distances while walking. After Jangmee steps in the exit, I feel jealousy and walk faster near to her after that boy separated from her. We went in different direction but I was just observing if that Jangmee and that boy will walk together but I wasnt. I thought of walking towards Jangmee but after I saw her taking a ride in the tricycle, I just keep walking away.
On the next day, I saw Jangmee but she didnt even show a little attention. I thought that maybe she does not want to see me, so I also just walk by without any attention. After that I thought maybe she doesnt want to talk to me after she saw me talking to that girl on RED CROSS month. I just walk away with a LOT OF THOUGHTS in my mind SHE HATES ME JUST BECAUSE SHE SAW ME TALKING TO OTHER GIRL, SHE DIDNT EVEN BOTHERED TO ASK. IF SHE WILL FORGET ME BECAUSE OF WHAT SHE SAW THEN SHE IS NOT THE RIGHT GIRL FOR ME.
I KEEP WALKING AND WANT TO CRY BUT I JUST KEEP MY FEELINGS NEUTRAL BECAUSE IN MY MIND WHO IS SHE FOR ME TO CRY WITH.
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