"Meant for me"

"In my dreams"

Every night had been the same he was there waiting for me to fall asleep to be with him' is this it for me I wondered? A man whom I did not have any recalection of had been the closest I could get to having the perfect love , Someone who I had kept as a secret , curiosity filled my thoughts ' this has to mean something other wise why did I keep having these dreams? What did he mean to me? What was his name?I can't take it anymore! Maybe I should accept the fact that I made him up to escape what had been really going on in my life,we moved what seemed like clear across the world from my childhood home ,my father had passed away ' and my poor dear sweet mother tried her best to keep it all together,and I hadn't made thing's easy for her, she's so strong at least on the outside'
That's it 'my dreams we're my escape' I made the perfect man up only "in my dreams" is where I could be myself & still be with someone who may or may not be real" no harm in that, this was perfect for me' but I still couldn't help but wonder if this all meant something? Well sighing with a deep breath... I can just enjoy what I have , He's mine and that's all that mattered to me ' I love him ' the way he looked at me,so deep,he made me feel safe with him, I could be myself' Even if it meant being with someone else who I really didn't give a damn for , at least when I'm with my so called future husband I could imagine I was with him, I thought it sounded a little selfish but I loved this man & he loves me " he will come for me I know this to be true!!