Once Upon A Suicide || BTS x READER FF *DISCONTINUED*

- Chapter 1 -

Y/N P.O.V.

Ugh. I wake up and my body feels like hell. I look at my door to find it wide open. I hear my father coming up the stairs. That's when my heartbeat sped up and memories from yesterday filled my mind.

--FLASHBACK--

I finally woke up. The last thing I remember is running into my room trying to get away from Father. He was drunk, he had already hit me with a glass alcohol bottle in the leg, and he had two more in his grasp. I finally approached my room, grabbed the door handle, but it was to late. I feel a pain on my head, then another. I look up to hear my Father lecturing me about who knows what. All I see is my blood, sweat, and tears. ( hehe, see what I did there.) I feel dizzy, and everything started to black out around me. I couldn't control my body and started falling. I couldn't see or hear anything. I heard a thump, and that was it.

--PRESENT--

My Father's footsteps started to fade. I saw him closing the bathroom door. I force my body to get up, and lock the door. After I had locked the door I looked over to my desk and see my phone. My shattered phone. I'm surprised Father hasn't found out that I have one yet. I go over to my desk, grab it then head to my bed. I sit down, then click the home button on my phone. Text messages that say "Go Kill Yourself", "Worthless", "Slut", "Whore", "Bitch", "Go die!", "Mistake", "Bitch", and more are the notifications I see first. I hear the toilet flush and I realize that Father is about to come out. I grab my backpack, then hop out of the window. I climb the ladder, then start running towards my school. I stopped when I was in front of a small convenience store. I felt really lightheaded, but I had to get to the school fast. I needed to freshen up and try to get the blood stains off my uniform. I saw a grandmother start walking towards me, and I started running again. No one can see me in this condition. No one.

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I finally reached the school. I had to go to the side of the school and sneak in through the window since it was just 4am, and the school isn't open until 6am. I threw my backpack through the window first, then I slowly went through. I had to jump from the window to the bathroom floor. Since I was so lightheaded I was scared, but its not like I haven't experienced this before. I took a deep breath then jumped. PAINN! I felt a sudden bolt of pain through my body when I landed, but I made it! I lifted my face, only to be looking at my reflection in the mirror. Ugly, fat, useless, whore, mistake, bitch, weak. I believed all those insults. The girl who made her own mom take her own life by just existing. That one I believe. My mom died when I was only 2 years old. She hung herself. I don't remember her, but I'm sure that she hated me as well. I was a mistake. She didn't want me. No one ever wanted me. I look at my phone and see that it's already 4:45am. I better hurry. I quickly wash up. When I finally finish I look for some Advil, and anti- depressants in my book bag. I found them, took them, and looked at the time, 5:45. Perfect. I was just going to wait in the bathroom (like every day) until school opened at 6. I went into the bathroom stall. I locked it and got my headphones out from my book bag, plugged them into my phone, and started playing BTS music. The only thing I'm living for at this point. I was humming along and having a great relaxing 15 minutes until I heard a slam. I looked through the opening of the bathroom stall door and saw Lisa. I took my headphones out.
Lisa,"Y/NNN....I know you're in here."
Chills got sent through my spine as soon as she called my name. I quietly put my phone and headphones in my back pack. Luckily my backpack had buttons and not zippers. I got my back pack and slowly opened the stall door. Lisa was busy checking other stalls that she don't notice that I snuck out of the bathroom. Well, I thought I was safe until I saw Lisa's minions Jennie and Rose waiting  for me outside of the bathroom.
Jennie,"Yah! Bitch you thought
you could get past us!"
Rose,"Yah!"
I felt my already weak body start to get weaker on me. Negative thoughts started filling my mind. I heard a door slam, and looked behind me to see Lisa.
Lisa," What are you looking at bitch?!"
She slapped my check hard. Jennie and Rose then grabbed me and started dragging me back into the bathroom. They locked the door. I knew what was about to happen. Lisa grabbed me by my shirt, then threw me into the ground as if I was garbage. I am garbage.
Lisa,"Don't just stand there girls. Beat that little slut."
Jennie and Rose started kicking me. Lisa squatted down to my eye level, grabbed me by my shirt, then started punching me.  I just closed my eyes and wished for the best wish possible. Death. Lisa handed me a sharp knife while saying,
"You know what to do."
I took the knife from Lisa's hand, and slowly started cutting my arm. The cuts started to get deeper and longer. I wasn't counting, I just kept going. Since I had so much blood loss from the night before, I was starting to see black spots. I told myself not now. I'd much rather die than pass out. Lisa took the knife away from me and said,
"Time for us to have a little fun."
She spun the knife in her hand, then got two more knives from her pocket and gave it to Jennie and Rose.
Lisa,"Girls, hold her down while I have a little fun. If she gets too crazy you are allowed to use your knifes."
Jennie then grabbed my legs and Rose grabbed my arms. They both held me down. Lisa started cutting little bits of my uniform, but not the whole thing. She then ordered Rose to take my shirt off. Rose let go of my hands and started taking my shirt off. I didn't try to stop her because if I did the situation would've gotten worse. I heard Lisa laughing, as I felt the tip of the knife sliding along my stomach. My fat stomach. Lisa had put small, deep cuts all over my stomach. She commanded me to roll over, so I did. I then felt more small, deep cuts. Well, nothing new. Just more added to the old ones. Old things always get replaced, right? Lisa then told Rose to put my shirt back on. Jennie got her knife and started cutting deep cuts into my legs. She started at my thighs and went all the way down. The bell rang and Lisa and her minions left. I was alone. Again.

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