College thoughts

What shit goes down.

Bruh.

Another day goes away to the log of attendance to the class I have to pass to get that good GPA that everyone desperately wants to even be considered to go to the grad school they're aiming to go to.

The same thing was repeated through high school I thought that would be over if college came or at least I would have the choice to take the classes I'm actually interested in but bullshit. I have to go through classes like drama or history to even get to the classes that I want to take. And when I ask why I have to take classes that have nothing to do with what I want to do they say its a necessary component to give you a good foundation to your college education.

What in the real fuck does that even mean ?

Like if I don't know that drama was first created in the stone age I can't go to my fucking Biology class?

That makes so much sense.

I can't believe I even questioned it in the first place.

I literally wasted two years of my fucking time dedicating it to shit I don't give a shit about.  Tell me why we have normalized this and called it "education'? Are we forgetting that thousands of dollars are coming out of our pockets to pay motherfucking bureaucrats and the one percent population to get richer and richer because we want an education. I mean seriously since when did we become so blind and stupid ?

It's like that one dumb saying "the more we know the less we use." okay lets pretend that's actually from someone important like President Donald trump maybe then the rich and white people actually start caring and putting up protests for cutting down on tuition.

But then again that's just a pipe dream right? Whatever.

I'm on year three of college and looking at another 3 years to get a bachelors because I don't have enough credits to graduate within two years. UNLESS I do twelve classes a semester....okay I'm exaggerating just like 7. That's still a lot of workload to handle especially if they have labs for the classes imagine doing 7 science classes a semester just to graduate the year you wanted to. It's total bull, it wouldn't just be for one semester but for three whole ones. Okay I did the math. I'm not that good at math but I know this shit is a FACT.

A year and a half full of shitty overloading classes. Now let's say I did that, my employers still expect me to have done 600 hours of community service and have loads of experience in my field. Now tell me if I dedicate ALL my time to the classes I need to pass to get my diploma HOW THE FUCK DO YOU EXPECT ME TO DEDICATE EVERY OTHER FREE HOUR OF MY LIFE TO EXTRACURRICULAR ACTIVITIES?

DO YOU EXPECT ME TO SLEEP 0 HOURS A DAY? 

I know you might be thinking half way through....I have no idea what this shit is but I know that I'm venting, whining, bitching, etc... whatever the fuck you want to call it but do you blame me ?

It seems like a never ending battle with no guarantee of a job or even a career. No WONDER education is plundering down the drain with little backing from the government, it's NOT WORTH IT. Or they're making it so expensive and difficult so that people who see the fruits of labor from the others that succeed in college are entrapped in the thought that college education is the only way to real money and jobs. 

But let me burst your little bubble it's not the only option and won't be the last, there's thousands of potential jobs that are open to the public without even a single year of college education. I mean you can always be a stripper, a MacDonald employee, a construction worker etc. They all win more or equal to a person with an AA. Why do you think people don't stop at an AA anymore? The norm for anyone is to get a masters or PHD. Eight or six years down the drain if you don't major in the correct field or pursue the good careers.

It's MADDENING. INSANE.RETARDED. STUPID. INCREDIBLE RIDICULOUS. FRUSTRATING!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm too educated to work at a fast food chain but too stupid to get a job at a company how is that fair? If it's not the level of education that i have under my belt it's my experience in the field, if you're currently a high-school student or whatever and you feel like you can conquer everything because you're a little smarter than everyone in your little itty bitty world then all that is gonna come crashing down when you realize that there THOUSANDS of people who are better than you in every aspect.

Oh of course everyone is different and you shouldn't compare yourselves but come on there's no questioning the fact that there's always gonna be someone who's smarter than you in something. 

Please don't come up to my school or any school in general and tell anyone all your little dreams when you're all just tiny freshman. Reality will hit you so fast and hard that you won't know what hit you until you look down and realize everything you thought you knew about yourself completely disappeared. 

There's a reason college is known to open up peoples horizons. It's a reality check. Your scope of actuality is expanded so much you're exposed to the harsh waves of the bitchy world but alas you're not alone. You look around and see thousands of people pushed forward by the current of compliance to empty promises and dreams that you now realize are broken. 

Most of them are still in their tiny blocked out horizons but the few that are awaken to the bare reality trudge their way through realizing that the best they can do is get good grades, a good job, and a good career otherwise they don't have the privilege to call themselves people. Then, you find yourself in that trudging with them because there is no where else to go. 

I know that's a little dark but waking up to recurring bullshit everyday can only gnaw at your  soul. My soul is almost completely eaten through. If you saw me I look normal, interacting normally and looking as happy as the next person but once I'm behind closed doors it's a different story. It's almost to much of a routine that I feel life lived like this isn't worth it anymore, but I'm not the type to kill myself. I don't have the courage plus I'm too religious for that shit.

So, I keep on with the same shit and I complain about it, throwing my shitty opinion around all the time but I keep it on. If my life only depended on myself I would do it but I have my family to support in the future and a shitty income for the rest of my life isn't going to cut it. It's some BS but it is what it is. I conform and sleep on my pain but that doesn't mean you have to. You're not happy? Do something about it.

You don't like school? Don't do it. FUCK the normal people, FUCK the normal anything. 

YOU DO YOU. Prove you're not another niche in the fucking machine that we call our society. You may be the only one who has the balls to do it but at least you're happy.

This is the kind shit that goes down in college. You're gonna meet people like me in college and if you don't want to? Too bad. Just like how you suck ass, you can suck it up bitch. 

Ain't anyone gonna give a fuck about your opinion, why do you think I'm writing this down on here? For your entertainment? 

Bitch please. It's because no one listens to me or even wants too. Not all this negative shit anyway.

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