dear journal,
it's been 2 weeks after avery and my little babygirl hazel died in a car crash. feeling broken, depressed, and weak is an understatement. all the energy that was inside of me has been drained and to be honest, i don't think i will ever be happy again. avery and hazel were my happiness. i'm extremely sleep-deprived because i can't sleep thinking avery and hazel are actually gone. all this therapy, antidepressants, and trips to the psychologist aren't working at all. nothing will make me happy again. it will never be the same without them. i can't believe the cause of their deaths was because of a stupid fucking drunk guy that crashed into avery's car. i'm just so angry and sad at the same time, i can't control these emotions. i remember that day vividly. it was on march 13, 2018 at 8:32pm when avery took hazel out with her to head to ralph's get some groceries. hazel was an adventurous child and would go wherever we went. she was so exuberant and excited because mommy was going to the store to get food to cook chicken tater tot casserole, her favorite meal. after they headed out, i turned the tv on and did some channel-surfing and then watched the local news. i had put a hot pocket in the microwave and went up to get it when i heard a ding. when i returned to the living room, there was a report about a car accident a block away from ralph's. avery and hazel's bloody bodies was on the screen of the tv. i broke down. i smashed the tv and got my keys to drive to the scene. i even remember when the police officers didn't even let me see my own wife and kid in the car. my heart shattered on that day, it wasn't the heart shattering breakup type, i felt like the world was crashing down on me.
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