"Ughh" I groan in frustration. I've been shopping for the last two hours and I still can't find a dress I like. I decide to quit and just go home.
There's a school dance on Friday and it's Tuesday and I still don't have an outfit, typical Liv it's not that I don't like shopping it's that I am the most indecisive person I have ever met, I like something then I don't and I also seek people's approval so if someone looks at me the wrong way while I'm trying on something I'm done even if I really like it. So yeah I'm a girl with a lot of issues.
However my cousin, Amanda, found her dress in the first thirty minutes and she looked absolutely perfect in it. It was a beautiful black strapless cocktail dress, Amanda's pretty curvy and sometimes she hates her boobs and talks about getting a breast reduction surgery and sometimes she adores them. I envy her sometimes and I hate myself for it, Amanda has gone through a lot of shit and every time I feel envious of her I feel like I am the worst person on planet earth but I'm working on it.
Amanda lost both of her parents in the span of three months and it crushed her. She put on a strong face for everyone but I could tell that she was absolutely destroyed.
It's been a year now and she's moved in with us and is starting the school year at my school. She's also back to being her old chirpy self but I still walk on eggshells around her, I still try to protect her because I love her and I've probably never said that to her face.
I decide to take a nap after that tiresome ordeal at the mall.
AUTHOR'S NOTE:
I know this is pretty short but I promise it gets better and it'll be longer too:)
