PLAY MY GAME [JaDine Compilations COMPLETED]

CHAPTER 8: Undefined Feelings [Edited]

This Chapter has been edited and proofread by the Author. Any similarities to other works are purely incidental.

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TREVOR'S POV

Something's really going between the two of them. I don't have any proof but my instincts are enough for me to prove that she's having feelings for Barro. Who am I talking about? Isn't it obvious? I'm talking about Aria and Barro. I mean, they're too close these past days ever since that Formal party of ours. I can't help but being angry with her, especially Barro. Aria is mine already and how dare he flirt with her.

Just like the Basketball event. I totally hate remembering that event! Barro's really getting into my nerves but hey, don't get me wrong. It's not that I'm jealous of him but it's beacuse of my pride. I mean, I just can't let him win right? Ibig kong sabihin, tungkol sa kagwapuhan ang usapan dito. Meaning, kung makukuha niya si Aria sa akin, talong-talo ako sa kagwapuhan. I can't let that happen 'cause I really care for my pride. Are we clear on that? Just my pride, plus I don't really know what's the feeling of being jealous. WTF! Speaking of the devils, she's with Barro again. It irritates me, really. Iritadong-iritado ako sa kanila na parang ayaw ko ng kausapin si Aria.

"Hey, we have to talk," I bluntly said to her. I guess their heading out but, no, I wanted her to be clear on this first before I'll allow her to do the things she want.

"Edi sabihin mo na ngayon dito! May pupuntahan kami ni Barro!" Ugh! I can't see any reason why she's always this angry to me. I wanna remove that anger of hers. It's getting on my nerves!

"PRIVATELY," I clearly emphasize the word. I don't want any chaperon around, "Let me borrow her for a while, Barro," then I grabbed her hand and drag her to our school field where she can shout the way she want since no one's gonna hear it, except me. I'm pretty sure she'll get angry again about this. So, I'd finally let her go when we reach the very center of the field.

"Ano ba, Trevor! Dito pa talaga sa field ang naisip mo ah?" yeah, where no one can hear you shout, Aria, "At tsaka, ang init dito Trevor,dito pa sa kalagitnaan ng field. Balak mo bang tuyuin tayong dalawa?" I agree with her. Mainit nga dito pero at least, walang makakarinig sa sigaw mo.

"Are you done?" tanong ko sa kanya. Gusto ko kase eh kalma ko siyang kakausapin tungkol dito para di niya magawang magsinungaling.

"Trevor, pakidali naman yung kung anong sasabihin mo oh. Ang init eh." okay, okay, fine.

"Do you like Barro?" sabi mo dadalian ko kung ano man ang sasabihin ko sa'yo. Oh ayan, gulat ka na naman dahil sa simpleng tanong lang.

"W-Wala anoh, kaibigan ko lang siya," sagot niya. See? Hindi talaga makakapag-sinungaling ang babaeng ito kung kalmado siyang kausap.

"Kung ganoon na pala eh, wag ka namang palaging makipag-landian sa kanya," diretsong ani ko habang nakabulsa. Sinigurado kong walang bakas na galit o iritado ako sa aking boses para walang masabi ang babaeng ito.

"Anong nakikipaglandian?" ayan na naman siya, nagagalit na naman. Ano bang nakakagalit doon sa sinabi ko?

"Last friday pa 'yun eh," paninimula ko, "Noong formal party namin, sa parking lot. Noong basketball ang subject niyo, tapos noong nanood tayo ng Metal Heart. Palagi kang nakikipaglangdian sa kanya," pagklaklaro ko sa kanya pero siguradong-sigurado na walang bakas na naiinis ako o nagagalit ako pero siya, halatang-halata na malapit na siyang sumabog.

"Ako? Hoy! Ikaw ang nakikipag-landian kay Angela! Ano ba, Trevor, kung ayaw mong maging loyal sa akin, huwag mong asahang magiging loyal din ako sayo, kahit na laro pa man ang lahat na ito. Ayoko ng magmukhang kawawa at palagi na lang na inaapakan." Woah?

Ano bang ibig sabihin niya sa mga sinasabi niya ngayon? I think it's only right na kinakausap ko si Angela, di ba? Kasi hindi naman kami magiging mag-syota kung hindi dahil gusto kong mabalik si Angela sa akin di ba? Why does she sound so real? Hindi naman niya siguro iniisip na talagang magsyota kami, di ba? Magulo siya.

"Can you clear it to me, Aria?" hindi ko talaga magets siya eh.

"I mean, alam-alam naman natin na laro lang 'tong pagiging magsyota natin p-pero, nakikita naman kasi ng karamihan na nakikipaglandi ka kay Angela kaya g-gusto ko lang naman na pumantay para hindi ako magmukhang kawawa," Ah, Okay. I get what she meant but that's not it.

"Just don't be too close to Barro, I'm afraid," I'm afraid, that you'll fall for him Aria. That's the point. I don't want you to fall for him. Why? 'Cause of my pride as a man, I can't just let you fall for him. Tatagus sa aking pride na hindi ako marunong mag-alaga ng babae kung madali kang makukuha ni Barro sa akin. Wait-Wait, marunong ba talaga akong mag-alaga ng babae? That caught me off guard.

"You're afraid of what, Trevor?" I let her catch my gaze. I just wanted to examine her beautiful eyes for the moment cause it seems I'm being caught in this stupid game. Di ba dahil hindi ako marunong mag-alaga ng babae kaya ka iniwan ni Angela, Trevor? Now, you're talking about pride. What does your pride has anything to do with it? I did hurt her in the past but she doesn't seem to be hurt.

"Trevor? Are we done talking, 'cause if it is, I'll be going," then I watched her walk away from me. Maybe, it's because I don't know how to take good care of ladies like you, that's why I'm left being alone.

"Aria!" I called her once more, If she turns around to look at me, then I'm gonna seriously treat her as a real gf, "Hey, WAIT!"

"What?!" angry face again. I run towards her.

"I'm gonna change the rules, Aria," right, I can see her blank face, "Okay, this is just a game but let's make it real, Aria. I mean, make our relationship real but this is just a game to make Angel come back for me, okay?" and if I really mean she's going to be my girlfriend, she will.

"I'm going to be your girlfriend, for real?" I'm not sure but I'm feeling sadness coming out from her. Wasn't she supposed to be happy? "Alright then, I'll agree with you again this time but if this game finishes, you'll leave me alone and exist in my world no more, Trevor," this time, I was the one feeling sad. I made a deal to her to play as my girlfriend until Angel realizes my worth, as a return, I'll leave her life. And what hurts me the most is when she agreed. I choose someone I want to someone I need. That's the tricky part about me, I will get my happiness soon enough, but will she be really my happiness?

After those conversations, I'd already let her go. Someday, I'll look Aria as someone, not as a toy anymore. I'm sure, from her, I'll learn how to take good care of women. I'll learn how to make them stay with me. Aria is someone I look as a toy, someone I owned. I don't know why I see her that way, but I don't regret it and I'm not going to regret. TRIANGLE represents how unfair life is. No matter how you change its position, its still have 3 sides. Someone has to be the sacrifice to somebody's happiness. That's what I always thought, but things get messy everytime Aria's with me. And that's what I hate about it 'cause she's dragging me into my own game.

Without any word, I left with my mixed undefined emotions.

to be continued...