My Best Friend's A Boy

Chapter 7. Friday

Andy's POV

Dear Diary,

Yes I am a fucking coward not denying it. I haven't tried getting a hold of Aiden all week or anyone. I have stayed locked away in my bedroom silently. Leah brings me my homework but doesn't try speaking to me. I haven't been going to school, or really eating or sleeping. Aiden hasn't tried contacting me either. Leah texts me every day to let me know Tyler isn't back either. Tomorrow is Friday and my father is sick of me skipping school so I am going to suck it up and go back tomorrow. 

Andrea Blake. 

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AIDEN'S POV

Dear Me, 

I'm to chicken shit to call or text her this is my fault I should have just told her the truth 4 years ago when I realized I was in love with her. Now I've been sitting in my bedroom mostly staring at the ceiling thinking about her. I went on my date with Samantha Monday night. I was so pissed off at Andy that I took Samantha home and when she told me her parent's weren't home and asked me to come in for a little while ha yeah I knew what it meant and yes I went inside with her. I made out with her and she took her shirt off and I stopped not because I was afraid to screw her cause I definitely ain't I literally couldn't Andy was in my head so bad I knew I was about to have sex with Samantha because I was mad at Andy so I rejected Samantha I lied said I had no condoms seemed like a good excuse she tried the hole I'm on birth control and I told her I wasn't doing anything without condoms and lied said I had no money to buy any that I had to get home I was tired. LIES ALL LIES. I've got to stop stringing her a long it's so fucked up I know that it is. I just keep going every day like not seeing Andy isn't tearing me apart, truth is I don't think Andy and I have gone this long without speaking but this is what she wanted and I don't understand why. 

Aiden King.

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Andy's POV

I see Tyler when I get off the bus and walk toward's him. "So are we done?" I ask him.

"Do you want to be done?" He asks raising his eyebrows.

I swallow hard and suck in my bottom lip.

"I don't want to be done." He says and then pulls me toward's him wrapping a hand around the back of my neck and kisses me. I kiss him back and kissing him feels so wrong like kissing a wall I feel nothing.

It's selfish to string him a long like this and I know that, but right now I don't have anyone and it's so lonely.

I shake my head he smiles at me and grab's my hand as we walk towards the school doors together.

The day goes by slowly and I see Aiden I wrap an arm around my chest every time he's near me afraid that seeing him is gonna shatter me, I feel shattered.

I sit down with my friends at lunch but don't speak to them or Aiden and Aiden doesn't speak to anyone either.

I sit beside him in class and we say nothing and it hurts so badly. How can one go from being best friends, knowing everything about each other and then they're just nothing at all.

I look up at him in confusion at my thought and wish I hadn't because he is staring down at me hurt burning in his eyes's he swallows hard and grits his teeth and the bell rings

Aiden stands up and walks out the door without even looking back leaving me broken and shattered.

Nothing hurt's more than losing your life long best friend, who you happen to be hopelessly in love with but deny it to yourself and everyone around you.

I never told him the truth because I know he doesn't feel the same way, but mostly because I didn't want to lose him and look at that I've lost him anyways.

I slowly get up and walk out of class and to my next one with Leah.

"Everything okay?" She whispers next to me.

I shake my head, my stomach trembling and my head hurting from fighting back the tears and nausea that seems to want to take me over I rest my head in my hand my elbow propped on the desk. 

I go to my locker and grab my coat when I turn around to leave I run into something hard it's a chest.

I look up and of course it's him, it's Aiden. 

My lips slightly part as he stares down at me holding me around the waist people walking by are staring at us. 

I swallow my pride as always and push away from him, I look up at him one last time with tears in my eyes and he see's it and now I'm embarrassed.  

"Andy wait-" He says trying to grab me but I quickly run away from him and everyone else.

I get on the bus and hide in the very back seat away from everyone as I slowly fall apart.

I get off the bus and walk down my driveway slowly. I drop my back pack in the house feeling like a sort of robot, I go out to the barn and check the horses.

"Hey." A voice comes from behind me I jump and spin around.

"Hey Tyler." I say. "Scared me." I whisper.

"You alright?" He asks.

"Yeah I'm fine." I say.

"Rumor around school is you and Aiden are fighting." He says.

"I bet you are real glad to hear that." I say sarcastically.

"You still going to the party tomorrow?" He asks.

"I don't know Tyler." I say.

"You could go with me for a change, just cause you ain't going with Aiden doesn't mean you shouldn't go it's your birthday." He says.

"How do I know you ain't gonna leave me out in the cold again?" I ask rudely.

"Come on Andy I'm sorry for that okay?" He says.

"Fine. I can't hang out today though got chores." I say.

"Okay. see ya tomorrow then." He says and kisses me goodbye.

"See ya." I whisper and then go back to my chores.