Life behind the fame; A Conor Maynard fanfiction

Chapter 56

Conor's POV

Just moving an inch made pain shoot up my leg and I let out a silent cry after I've managed to wake myself up in the middle of the night.

Alaska is still peacefully asleep beside me, her face nuzzled into the crook of my neck just like she'd fallen asleep last night.

The light from the city makes its way in through the thin curtain and I feel myself longing to be out there. To be drunk and carefree just like I used to be.

Because there had been a time where I'd enjoyed everything that had to do with this life and I as much as I love what I have with Alaska do I actually miss that time.

The time where this industry was the best thing that had ever happened to me and the time where I didn't seem to have that limit that always got me worrying.

I reach out for my phone, knowing I'm not allowed to take my medication until this morning. But seconds after I've done that do I regret it, the text on my screen clear as day.

Victoria; Just wanted to ask if you want to meet up and talk things through between us. Just to figure everything out. Xx

The text confused me, not only because I'd thought we were over everything that we once were but also because it had made me happy seeing her name again. And this time it hadn't been a short answer the morning after I'd drunkenly texted her. She had been the one to take time out of her life to text me, the guy she dumped two years ago now.

Conor; You can come around mine later today if you like. I'll send you the address.

I instantly feel guilty knowing I'd made up plans to meet up with my ex behind Alaska's back. After all she's put me through is a simple text enough to win me back over.

But I shouldn't be ashamed for wanting to fix things between us. Cause this doesn't mean I've got any sort of feelings left, does it.

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"Morning sleepyhead"

I smile as I hear her voice, keeping my eyes closed for as long as possible.

"Mm, morning"

It'd been a horrible night filled with pain and sleeplessness. Gosh I hate my life and everything that has to do with it right now.

"You alright?"

She lets her fingers run down my bare chest, her breath tickling my skin as she exhales slowly.

I nod, kissing the top of her head, letting my lips linger for a few seconds before I pull away.

"Good, I need to get ready. Remember I have booked to go away with Georgia today?"

After Georgia's and Joe's breakup, Georgia had moved to Southampton of all places, something that had surprised me to be completely honest.

"I remember, you've literally told me that every day for the past week or so"

I tease her, pecking her lips quickly before she leaves the bed to get in the shower.

Victoria: Perfect, text me which time and I'll come round

It felt like a stone had been put on my shoulders as I saw the text. What had I been thinking last night?

I sit up on the edge of the bed, rubbing the sleep out of my eyes to try and wake up a bit.

The weather outside symbolises how I'm feeling, the grey London sky looking like it could start raining any minute now.