Some nights, there's the feeling of complete emptiness. These are different to the nights of when something is on your mind, and you're upset or worrying.
It's the nights where you aren't sure what's wrong, or what's causing you to feel like you mean nothing and have no contribution to anything. The nights where, instead of feeling sad, and reacting, even by means of crying, you just feel nothing, and hardly move.
When you try to stifle these feelings by entertainment, you watch a movie, a TV show you like, a funny you-tuber or even music just to bring out an emotion. But, all that happens is you get bored, and slowly grow a resentment for things you used to love and enjoy.
In some of these nights, you notice small details that maybe you never even noticed before? Staring at a wall, seeing a smudge or a crack you didn't quite see before, or maybe on the ceiling, recognising random and peculiar patterns.
Sometimes the feeling of just- numbness, is overpowering. You end up laying there, hardly even moving, by choice, or sometimes not.
What is there, that you could even slightly do, to stop this feeling, when you're all by yourself, in the dark, and everything makes you feel worse?
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RandomA collection of thoughts, depressing perhaps, but raw and meaningful thoughts.
