I hate how much I depend on you for happiness. When my circumstances get too difficult to bear I have to turn to you for hope. It pains me knowing that I have a sick obsession that I have no power over anymore. It began from one or two slashes of silver. Then eventually became a severe obsession of crimson and silver. Now I can't stop for I have become so reliant on you. I crave your slashes more than ever, even when I don't really need them. I have become twisted and obsessed with the feeling you give me. The control you have over my own life is unbelievable. I don't ever hesitate to ask for your help. Because I know you'll always be that glimmer of "hope" that will give me a sense of "security" But you've manipulated my mind to think that you can actually make my life better. My mind has become lenient and immediate to reach and find you so you can offer the sweet release that I so crave. I want to rid myself of this sickly obsession but how can I when I am so infactuated with you♡
