When can you say that you found the right love? Is it measured based on the butterflies that flutter in your stomach? Is it when your day is incomplete without having a glance of her? Or is it when you’re willing to sacrifice everything just to see her smile?
What if you found the right love but the timing is not so right? Will you hold her hand and take the battle together or will you loosen up the grip and wait for the time to be right?
Questions flooded into my mind as I realize that I’m about to experience the same thing.
“Are you even listening to me Zach?”, a voice interferes my thoughts.
“What did you say?”, I retorted for I was lost in the moment trying to digest all the words that Bea said.
“I know this is kind of unexpected but I changed my mind. I know we got plans about our dreams together but I cannot let this opportunity slip in my hands”, she replied.
“How about us?”, I asked her seriously.
She was speechless for a while, “Zach you know how much I love you but this is my dream we’re talking about.”
“Is that you’re own way of saying that you love your dream more than me? Bea I thought we will reach our goals together but why am I always being set aside? I thought I was done being your second choice, your second priority and your second love but I was wrong all along.”
“Listen Zach, I know I’m being selfish but this is not just my dream. I wanted to prove that I am not weak and I can be successful”, Bea cried her heart out.
“Am I not part of your dream Bea? If necessary I’ll forget my own life just to help you have the life that you wanted to achieved.”
“I cannot let that happen Zach. I know you still have responsibilities to carry as the eldest son. Zach I love you but how can we love when we have different path to take. Yes we love each other but it’s not enough. How can we love when the things around us are trying to break us apart? Yes we found the right person to love but I cannot let my world stop just because I love you or you losing your direction because of the love you had for me”, she explained.
“I didn’t expect that this day will turn out this bad. If I have known then I shouldn’t have made those preparations for our anniversary to be romantic and memorable. Honestly, this is something that I could never forget that I wish I could”.
“Bea you’re the only girl that I wanted to be with for the remaining days of my life but if that’s what you want then fine, I’m letting you go. This is hard for me but maybe someday, this pain will be useful. As they say, letting go is another way of saying how much you love that person. I hope you will not regret this decision and may you find happiness chasing your dreams”, he take a pause gripping the small velvet box inside his pocket. Bea in our next life if ever we meet again, will you choose me over your dreams?”, he asked before he walk away from the person who gave him the reason to live but now gave him the pain that feels like he’s dying.
Bea felt a strong squeeze in her heart while sitting in the bench of the park, the exact place where Zach walk away from her. She did what she want but why is it that she’s feeling down? She wonder why, maybe of the confrontation that happened a while ago. Actually she got a hard time planning how to tell Zach about her plan because she can’t deny the fact that he became a big part of her life but minutes ago she just officially untie all the connection that she had with him except for that one thing-her love for him.
Everything falls into places but not to its right spot. Zach focuses his attention to work. He accepted the proposal to become the engineer who will supervise the construction of the public hospital in Palawan. Actually, he got a plan to decline the offer since Palawan is way too far from Manila and as much as possible he wanted to stay with Bea. He realized that he no longer have the reason because Bea is somewhere chasing her happiness and here he is now trying to run away from sadness.
