I remember the way I felt about you! I remember be so worried when I found out you were sick. Mad when someone put you down. Sad when there was nothing I could say to fix it. Hurt when you decided to choose her instead of me.
Walking together, trying hard not to cry, as you held her hand. Walking away, as you two continued in the direction, I could only dream of. Watching as the door shut behind you, closing me out of the only world I thought I belonged in.
So much of my life, was spent watching, smiling, and crying, with every move you made. I wanted so badly, for you to look in my direction, and see something you liked!
Even now, so many years later, I think about the little, shy girl, who hoped you would notice her. Th feelings are gone now, but the memories are with me forever. The happiness, sadness, frustration, and hope, that you made me feel everyday, for years. You were a light amongst my darkness, sending out a life line, in order for me to find my way back.
I don't know who hurt you so badly, that it changed you from the boy I once knew. Seeing you today, would cause pain and regrets in my life. Regrets of not seeing the pain you were going through. Regrets of not being there to help you. I wish things would have turned out different. Maybe then I would still be able to call you my friend.
