SpiritMark: Mahailah's Story.

Spirit Mark

"Mahailah? You up?" I hear Sierra's voice call. I roll my eyes and turn over hoping she'll just go to work and let me sleep. It is summer... "Mahailah! Get up!" She says. I roll my eyes and sit up reluctantly. I have four room mates. Sienna, my big sister. Anna, one of my best friends. I've known her since I was three. Diamond, who I didn't get along with until seventh grade. And Aaleah, who I met online in ninth grade and we became extremely close. Everyone has work today, except for me.

"Yeah?" I say acting as if I had just woke up, and haven't been up all night watching YouTube videos...

"You need to do the dishes." She says before turning around and leaving. I hear the car door shut and I mumble a few profanities under my breath. I'm turning Eighteen today, and I can't wait. I... can't wait to find out what they'll say when we first meet... I'm quickly stripped from my thoughts as my phone goes off.

* 1 unread message from: AS 💛🌻 *

AS 💛🌻: Hails! Has it shown up yet?!
M: Anna, you know that's not how it works!!
AS 💛🌻: well, I wanna know what it says when it does!!
M: ok.
AS 💛🌻: swear!!
M: I swear that when my spirit mark shows up, I will tell you what it says. I'm sorry yours didn't say what... ya know... he said to you when you first met.
AS 💛🌻: YOU BETTER! And it's fine, still trying to figure out who the hell is going to say 'Sorry, Love. Didn't mean to knock it over.' Like... dude, what did you knock over?
M: it's 6:08... 1 minute...
AS 💛🌻: EEK!!!
M: IT SHOWED UP!
AS 💛🌻: WHAT DOES IT SAY?!
M: ... I give up.
AS 💛🌻: why?
M: it says ''You gonna eat that? Oh shit! Are you alright? Here lemme help ya up.'' WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING TO HAPPEN?!
AS 💛🌻: At least he's a gentleman.
M: Oh well. Sienna's literally wins though. 'Get off of me, you fucking idiot! Sorry, my friends are CHILDREN!!'
AS 💛🌻: Yeah I'm surprised she hasn't met them yet! I mean... that's pretty distinct...
M: Yeah! Well, Imma go do the dishes and contemplate what the shit my kindred spirit even is at this point.

I go down to the kitchen and clean the dishes before plopping down on the couch and turning on Spongebob.

* 1 unread message from: DL 💛🌻 *

DL 💛🌻: did it show up?
M: Yeah. I'm trynna figure out what the shit is gonna happen...
DL 💛🌻: oh shit tell me everything.
M: they're literally going to say 'You gonna eat that? Oh shit! Are you alright? Here lemme help ya up.'
DL 💛🌻: at least yours didn't disappear five seconds later...
M: I know love. I'm sorry... I shouldn't be so rude as to complain about my anxiety with this when I know it's a touchy subject for you.
DL 💛🌻: eh. I've always liked the idea of never getting married.
M: understandable...

I put down my phone and continue to watch Spongebob, contemplating the spirit mark on my hip. "You gonna eat that? Oh shit! Are you alright? Here lemme help ya up." I read aloud hoping to make sense of the words.

A few hours have passed and I've now gone from watching Spongebob, to watching YouTube, to watching Netflix. I hear a knock at the door and get up to check.

"Mahailah Nicole Johnson?" A middle aged woman in a suit with a tablet asks me.

"Yes, you are...?" I say as she hands me her card.

"Veronica Gracey." She smiles at me.

"Yeah, come on in." I say inviting her in, "You want some tea or coffee?" I ask.

"No thank you. Has your spirit mark appeared?" She asks me. I nod, "May I see?" She asks. I stand up and lift my shorts to show her the words on my hip. She laughs a little and writes it down, "Thank you for your time, Mahailah." And with that she leaves.

I suppose a little introduction to who I am and where I am, as well as who I live with would be nice...

I'm Mahailah Nicole Johnson. I was born on July 2, 2002 and today is my eighteenth birthday. I'm clumsy, funny, and maternal as shit.

I live with four other girls. Sienna Graelee Johnson, the flirt as we call her. Anna Elizabeth Sumners, the sensible one, just don't say her last name with an 'n' or she may be upset, it's Sumners pronounced summers. Diamond Greer Lynnwood, the sassy one. And Aaleah Jane Lenman, the mysterious one. Me? I'm the funny one. I use humor as a defense mechanism and everyone just thinks I'm always joking. But in reality, I'm fucked up. I have multiple mental illnesses including: PTSD, Social Anxiety Disorder, ADD, Hypersomnia, rarely but sometimes insomnia, Major Clinical Depression, Borderline Personality disorder, a sensory form of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, and an Eating Disorder.

Incase you're confused on some of that I have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder from traumatic experiences in my life, causing me to relive them when something triggers a memory of it, or through nightmares.

I have Social Anxiety disorder, meaning I have an Anxiety attack in some social situations.

I have Attention Deficit Disorder, meaning I can't pay attention to just one thing and my attention goes to something else, basically I'm distracted all the time.

I have Hypersomnia, meaning I sleep for twelve to fifteen hours and still wake up completely exhausted.

I rarely, but sometimes, have Insomnia meaning I physically can't sleep.

I have Major Clinical Depression, meaning I get depressed at random times and I'm often suicidal. No that's not what you think, it's not me actively wanting to kill myself as much as it's waking up and thinking 'Why did I have to wake up today?' Or thinking things like 'The world doesn't need me.' 'Everyone and everything is better off without me.' 'Maybe if I died everything would be better...' But sometimes it is me actively wanting to kill myself.

I have Borderline Personality Disorder, meaning I have irregular mood swings, I'm insecure, I'm depressed, I'm impulsive, and over all feel like I'm worthless.

I have a Sensory form of OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) meaning Certain noises, feelings, etc. Make me cringe.

I have an eating disorder. Binge eating disorder. I eat and eat and eat, and never get full. I'm on a medicine to help with that and ADD at the same time.

Basically, I'm fucked up.

I turn my attention back to Spongebob and away from my fucked up brain.

>•< Authors note: First chapter up! Next chapter: The storm to come. A picture of Mahailah will be in the media of chapter two. If you want a part in the story, DM me and let me know. I'll ask you some questions and voila you're a part of the story!

'Til next chapter.

Xoxo,

~Karma 💛🌻~