Wait For Me -Kim Hanbin

"Real Talk 🙇🙇🙇"

Hey guys, so today when i made this it was
October 17
The day of my Grand-ma (side if my father)
Died, my parents, me and my sister came to her grave..
And all i can say is,
It was sad and for the 3rd time i saw my farther cried, i never ever saw his weak side since he feels embarrassed when he crys..
Each one of us talked to her, the sad part was dad explain how he change because of her gone-presentes..
We explained how we miss her, and even thou she can't hear us...
I still pray for the best for grandma,
She was always there, i was used to her present thag i got tired of it...
I started to be ignorant, selfish, and the worst Grand daughter she can have...

I'll explain why she died,

I used to live with my grandma with my parents and sister, life was good...
She will pick me up and then we will go to the mall with my sister, she never ever buys us cheap ones.
When we like something just saled at the sides of the road, she will say
"At the mall, it will be nicer and more expensive"

I lived with her since in Kindergarten to 1st grade in elementary
When i became Grade 2, my other grandma side of my mother
Said we have to stay at her for now on, but
After for a few years
In 4th grade i started to hate her,(grandma side of dad)
i don't know why but yea i did hate her.
I mistreat her, and i did regret until now.
She died because of loneliness we gave her and the way w- i mean, I treat her

After a few months of my 4th year in elementary,
I heard she got to the Hospital...

My mother did all she can, she could be there for her until morning
24/7 mom stayed and took care of her, we sometimes come there and we would asked who we are but, the saddest thing was she forgot who dad was...
When she go looks for dad she would say
"Diin to ang nag tupad sa akon tulog gab-i?"
Means; Where is the person who slept with her
Last night?"
She forgot dad,
Dad would always cry when he hears that, but he still kept being strong

After a few months she died,
She couldn't fight her Cancer any more it was stage 3 almost to 4,
I regret so much, didn't loved her while i still can made me regret to death

I hope she's in a good place now, and i hope she will be always there for me like before...
I will always love her and we will always love her until our last breath...

Quick reminder; Love or care for someone until it lasts😢😢😢