Tea and Coffee /Shinji x Kaworu/

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I had no clue to when my appointment had started. Maybe 10 minutes ago, 15 minutes maybe even more. I was siting in a small room, the waiting room. I wasn't sure if my therapist, Mrs. Green, was late or she was busy with a patient inside. I wasn't the only one waiting in the room. There were at least seven people inside this small room. At first I didn't think of it that much because I was supposed to be next, but the longer I waited the more anxious and scared I gotten. It was getting cramped and I was getting so anxious.

'Too many people, too many people!'

You may be thinking I have bad anxiety which is why I go to the therapist, but you are fooled.

I have Avoidant personality disorder, or avpd for short. It means that I am very Very scared of social situations, or as Mrs Green would say, 'I am in fear of social activities because of the fear of criticism and rejection.' I'm afraid of going out which is why I stay at home all the time, the only time I would go out is A: I have to buy food B: I have to go to work, which is at a café or C: Therapist appointment.

Usually I would go very early to the therapist office and she'll see me and call me in quickly, which means I don't stay in the waiting room for long and that is all. But today must be the worst day of my life.

'I can't take this! I have to leave!' My heart was pounding and I felt so sick, I slowly get up from the chair and tried to walk towards the door, but then the door opened.

I stopped because what I saw, was probably the most beautiful person I've ever seen.

A guy with white hair and red eyes walked in the room. He was wearing a white t shirt and skinny pants. His pale skin looked so smooth I actually wanted to touch it to see if it was true!

He was looking around and then he looked at me, which I was still standing. When he saw me and looked quickly away and I could've sworn before I looked away I saw a shimmer in his eyes. I walked back to my seat and sat down.

'I guess I could stay here for a little longer' I thought.

From the corner of my eye I saw the red eyed boy walked towards the seat next to me and sat down.

'Great.'

I was twiddling with my fingers and looking down. I couldn't bare to say hi or even look at him any longer. My heart was still pounding.

'Oh god im going to lose it aren't I?'

"Shinji."

I quickly looked up and saw Mrs. Green with a smile on her face.

"Come on." She said. I fast walked towards her and we went into another very small but cozy room.

"Very sorry about the wait Shinji, it's a pretty busy day for me."

"No tha-that's okay." I stuttered.

"So Shinji how have you been." A very sincere smile.

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When I left the room I couldn't find the red eyed boy. But I really didn't want to be in the waiting room any longer so I went home.

I live alone in an apartment. About two years ago I would cut. Just whenever I felt like it I would cut my wrists. It is a horrible scary thing, but to me it felt like it was a release of all my pains. My father neglected me as a kid and my mother died when I was four.

I still have the scars, which is why I wear long sleeved shirts. But when I had my first appointment with Mrs. Green she told me to get a hobby, something I would like and every time I feel like cutting do that hobby instead. At first I thought I couldn't do it but after a while I found my hobby and decided that this was for the best. My hobby is planting flowers.