Maybe poetry?

Surreal...

It feels a little too surreal
my heart is pounding and
I can't breathe
what do I do?
Do I cry?
Or do I just lay here and suffer in silence?
I guess maybe I can cry in silence
and maybe in another life
I'd scream until my lungs gave out and
maybe I'd collapse onto the floor while
yelling out your name
or maybe I'd just stare after you
and realize what a terrible mistake you once
were
and maybe
then maybe I'll just get over the fact that you

hurt me in so many ways and then acted like you were the one who was bleeding
maybe one day when you actually realize this it'll be too late I'll be married
and I won't even think about you and

maybe just maybe you'll be moved on and not think about me 😭
or maybe you will and you'll see the whole other world around me
and see the person you once claimed to love

but you don't claim you love someone unless you mean it and don't want to hurt them