It was so sudden when her life had changed forever she was split between two worlds. But when she got to the point where she couldn't take it anymore she snapped.
She had already been through so much in her life, torn every which way possible and her heart shattered into a million pieces. She lost a sister at the age of 14 and was lost in her own sorrows and blamed herself. For the longest time she felt alone like a piece of her was missing. She had just lost her best friend in life and felt she'd never have another or feel whole again. The bond that her and her sister her best friend in life had was unbreakable.
She cried herself to sleep every night and was in a world of darkness full of devastation and sorrow. As she goes on in her life she has a huge change happen in her life. She moves to a new state from a small town where she lived her whole life. A life with her father into a new life with her mother and her moms boyfriend. Full of a place with love and peace where maybe she could feel whole again.
Somewhere where she felt like she could belong for the rest of her life. But the only thing keeping her from that was the feud between her parents. They can never agree on anything about her except her health and wellness. Just when she thought she could have a better life and escape it all things never changed. They just followed her everywhere always and forever and this wasn't helping her case at all.
Her parents are going back to court because of rules about the custody with her. Just when she hoped it would all work out it didn't and this put a humongous burden on her. She felt it was all her fault because this was all about her she never got any better. She was stressed 24/7 and crying all the time because she just couldn't hold it in anymore. She had no emotions for anything anymore no more tolerance she didn't give a care in the world anymore.
She was giving up and needed a miracle in her life somehow someway. She still has faith but very little only enough to keep her up and going each and everyday. Hopefully everything will be better and full of love and comfort again. She needs someone to cherish and support her when she falls, as they brush her off and say " get back out there my fearless child". She knows she can get that from her mom but hopes one day she has someone. That'll do that and have a best friend relationship like her and her sister that's been gone for almost two years.
She misses her dearly each and everyday hoping for someone like her to talk too. But her sister was truly one and a kind and no one could replace her. Every time her sister entered a room and smiled it's as if none of it even existed and all bad emotions and issues were gone. Disappeared like it never existed and everything was full and covered in love and hope. A place where you lived with no worries and lived your life as u pleased full of safety and protection.
