[Name] wake up as the bright sun rays kissed her eyelids. She let out a soft yawn and rubbed her eyes groggily. As she opened her [color] eyes, she realized that she is not in her room. Different color of the walls met her eyes, different feel of the bed, different atmosphere. The usual things she first sees in the morning, her bookcase and study table, her favorite stuffed toy, the posters of her favorite animés, and the small dresser, was out of her sight. Even her own body feels different. It feels heavy and limp. It seems like she does not have enough strength to stand. But even so, she pulled herself up in a sitting position. As she did, the blanket slid off her body. When she became aware of her current state that is being unclothed, her mind panicked. Then blurry memories of yesterday flooded her mind.
“It’s you [Name]-cchi!”
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“I guess I’ll make you mine in any way possible.”
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“…You can’t escape me. You are mine.”
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“[Name]-cchi, do you know how long I’ve been hoping for this to happen?”
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“Kise-kun…please…don’t…”
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“It-It hurts…Please…s-stop…”
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Tears began to stream down her face as she saw the horrible bruises and scratches on her skin and the blood stains on her thigh. She tried to muffle her sobs, to prevent the man sleeping beside her from waking up, the man who did this terrible thing to her, but she just can’t. She’s afraid that he will do it again to her once he wakes up. But deep inside her, she wanted to let it out, to let out all of the pain, all of the hurt she feels. She wants him to hear and feel it all.
She got up of the bed and picked her clothes scattered on the floor to put them on. The golden-haired man stirred up from his slumber.
“[Name]-cchi…what’s wrong?” he mumbled hoarsely.
She turned to him and exclaimed,
“How could you do that to me?!” her hand came in contact with his cheek in a slap.
“I trusted you! I thought you are different from them but I was wrong!” she continued to slap him but he just let her.
Kise realized how wrong he was and he thought that what he did to her is something unforgivable. He thought that if hurting him would help her ease her pain, he would let her. I deserve it, he thought. He hated himself for doing something terrible to her, the girl he really loves.
“I’m sorry about yesterday… I didn’t mean to hurt you… It’s just that…”
“Just what?” she snapped. “You suddenly got the urge to do it?! I never knew you were like that.”
“No! It’s not that… Look [Name]-cchi… I meant it when I said I love you…”
“Love? Is that how you love?! You hurt them?! You force yourself to them?!”
She wanted to sound angry because she really is but her voice cracked and tears threatened to fall again from her eyes. She have always been like that, when she is too angry that she cannot take it anymore, tears will fall from her eyes even if she does not want to cry. She does not want to look weak. She rubbed her eyes and grabbed her things and headed towards the door.
“Wait [Name]-cchi!” he held her hand.
“Don’t leave me…” he begged. She glared at him.
