For a moment everything stopped, no longer did I hear the waves crashing against the rocks, the soft music came to a halt, her lips moved but I heard no noise. I I was in deep shock. and my whole body went numb. After hearing the words "Rose, I am moving abroad" every part of me shut off, my heart tensed and i phased out feeling as if i was imagining the whole thing. Once I felt a cold tear tremble down my cheek, I snapped out of my state of shock and faced reality. Bella was leaving in less than two weeks, and I figured that we must make the most of it before she was taken away from me to live with her parents in the UK. I couldn't blame Bella for leaving, I knew she would rather stay- no one wants to move across the world for your fathers promotion. But I could blame Bella for not keeping in touch with me, and tearing the happy memories of us out of her life completely. And even seven years after, I still think of Bella as the love of my life.
" Rose, are you ready yet?" Joe shouted up from the bottom of the stairs.
His voice startled me, as i was so engrossed in my thoughts about Bella. I thought about Bella a lot, I wondered what her life is like now. If she indentifies herself as straight, if she has children, if she is happy and most of all if she ever thinks about me. If she misses me.
" Yes, just putting my socks on, why don't you wait in the car?" I replied back, as i danced around the room looking for something to wear. I had been sat on the floor trapped in thoughts about Bella for almost half an hour. And had now realised that I am no where near ready and that Joe would go mad if he realised.
" Okay, hurry up, I dont want to be waiting around, you know how important tonight is for me" he said in a stern voice. I could already tell he was losing his patience with me. I looked in the mirror and first of all was greeted with a frizzy mess, after pushing my hair away from my face i realised I had only done one eye of make up. Joe likes me looking my best as he can show me off at events like this, so it was important that i made an effort. As i apllied eye shaddow to my other eye I thought about why I have never felt as strongly about Joe as I did Bella.
As a teen i felt the need to wear a lot of make up, as i felt insecure about my teenage skin, Bella often discouraged it and once, when were together in the sea, she held my make-up free face and whispered " You've never looked so beautiful" and kissed my cheek. Thats one big difference between Bella and Joe, Bella made me feel special where as Joe makes me an object that he could boast about, so it was important i always looked top notch.
Before Joe proposed to me, I had the upmost respect for him, he was a gentleman. He was very attentive and often romantic. He agreed with all my views on things and had complete trust in me. When feeling not good enough for challenges i was faced with he would push me to excel in him, he brought out the best in me. But now that had all changed, since he proposed to me he treats me like his property. He has gone back to old fashioned views, like he is superior to me for being male. I also think this new outlook is reflected from his new work colleagues. After getting promoted at work, he now works alongside older men, who have an arrogant, outfashioned, egotistic outlook on pretty much everything. Of course Joe doesn't see it like this and has taken to them and their ways.
As we sat in the car on the way to Joe's fancy work do, Joe hit me with questions to why I have been acting strangely today. Of course the majority of the questions were very self indulgent.
" Are you having second thoughts about the wedding? Have I done something to upset you? Do you not want to come tonight?"
After assuring him everything is fine, we got out the car and headed towards the fancy restaurant that we were meeting his work friends in. As we sat down at the table, i looked around and saw many unfamiliar faces and then Joe's new colleagues who I have seen an awful lot at these dinners. But then as I turned to look at Joe I noticed someone that I never would have expected to see. Especially not here in the US. It was Bella's father.
