My Contract Basketball Player Boyfriend (Arcadia Series #1)

[44] We're fine.

Jazrille's POV

Nandito ako sa kwarto ko. Crying myself to sleep. Hindi ko alam. Hindi ko alam kung hanggang kailan nya balak ilihim sakin na may papakasalanan pala syang iba. Na may ibang nakatadhanang magpakasal sa kanya.

Paano na ako? Humahanap naman ako ng paraan para makapagsama pa kami ng matagal. Hindi ko iniintindi ang sinasabi ng Lolo nya pero bakit ganon? Parang feeling ko, anytime mawawala sya sakin. Mawawala yung ilang months na pinagsamahan namin.

Hindi ko ata kaya. Sya lang yung lalaking nagtiis sakin kahit sobrang sungit ko. Na kahit inis na sya sakin, nanjan parin pa sya sa tabi ko.

Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko nung oras na malaman ko na may fiancee na pala sya.

Hanggang ngayon hindi ko parin alam kung sino yung babaeng papakasalan nya.

"Jaz. May bisita ka." Sabi ni Jeth. Hindi ko sya pinansin at nagtalukbong ng kumot. Maya maya, may umupo sa tabi ng bed ko.

"Baby." Mas lalo akong naiyak nung narinig ko yung boses nya. Bakit sya nandito? Makikipaghiwalay na ba sya sakin?

"Baby, please talk to me. Let's end this fight. Im sorry." Ivan, alam mo naman na hindi kita kayang tiisin. Please, wag ngayon. Hindi ko pa kayang bitawan yung taong nagpapasaya sakin.

"Okay, if you dont want to talk to me, I'll give you space. Goodnight. I love you so much Jazrille." Hindi ko parin sya pinapansin at umiiyak parin ako. Hanggang sa narinig ko na nagsarado na yung pinto ko.

Lumabas ako sa ilalim ng kumot at nakita ko yung isang life size teddy bear na nakaupo sa bed ko tapos may isang malaking Mcdo fries na nakalagay sa ibabaw ng study table.

Tumayo ako at binasa yung nakadikit na sticky note sa Mcdo fries.

""I love you" means that I accept you for the person that you are and that I do not wish to change you into someone else. It means I will love you and stand by you even through the worst times. It means loving you even when you're in a bad mood or too tired do things that I want to do. It means loving you when you're down not just when you're fun to be with. It means that I care enough to fight for what we have and that I love you enough not to let go and walk away." Im crying again because of this note. Tapos may isa pa ulit note.

"Sorry for not telling you. It's not that I dont trust you but I just dont want you to be hurt. Im really sorry Jazrille. Please, dont be mad at me. Im just doing what I thinks that's best for you. Im really sorry." Lumabas ako ng room at hahabulin sana si Ivan nang makita ko sya sa harap ng pinto ko. I hugged him so tight that I dont want to let him go.

Umiyak lang ako ng umiyak habang yakap nya ako. I feel secure in his arms. I really love him kahit na ano pang mangyari saamin.

"Jaz." Humiwalay ako sa yakap then pinunasan ko yung luha ko.

"Im sorry Ivan. Im sorry for not listening to you. Hindi ko pinakinggan ang paliwanag mo. Im eager to know who's your fiancee but Im afraid to find out. Hindi ko kayang makitang masaya kasama ang iba. Hindi ko kayang makita ka na kasama kung sino man yang fiance mo. Hindi ko kaya na --" hindi ko pa natatapos yung speech ko, hinalikan na nya ako.

"Baby, ang dami mo masyadong sinasabi. Hindi na ikaw yung Jaz na nakilala ko. Hahahaha but kidding aside, you dont have to worry, really. Im inlove with your smile, your voice, your body, your laugh, your eyes. But most of all, Im inlove with you. Only you. You dont have to be jealous with other girls. Alam mo naman na allergic ako sa mga babae, syempre except you and your cousins. Kaya dont be paranoid. Yung fiancee ko? Hindi ko sya gusto at mas lalong hindi ko sya mahal. Ikaw lang. Ikaw lang Jazrille." His words, that keep myself sane. I kissed him then I hugged him. Im so lucky to have him.